n8tvegrl

Well life is forever changing.... if it wasn't then we'd be dead. I just feel like my life is like a carnival ride only I can't get off. I think I'm okay and everything is tolerable and fine and then I'm jerked in another direction and feel like I'm going to vomit again.

I need a new job. I need a new circle of friends. I need to get out of debt. I need to be a better mother. I would like a new sofa and need a new vacuum cleaner. Oh yeah and I need a bed.. I have no bed now.

Thankfully the kids have all they need and I'm sure I can make everything work without their having to suffer. I just hope I don't have to expose them to the harshness of my current reality which could cost them their innocence.

On a brighter note... the sun is out right now and I'm going to jump in the shower and get pretty. I'm buying some new boots today and I need to be in the proper attire and mindset to fully appreciate the wonderful deliciousness of that which is shoe shopping!