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Okay so it's officially 13 hours and counting till my next Dr. appt. and I'm feeling really good about it. I've got labs... as always... but I'm going to talk about the neurological shit going on and I might be able to sleep sometime soon. Why does shit hurt more at night? WTF???

So, at the moment I have either numbness or extreme pain in my lower body below my navel. A bit more on my left lower abdomen... not sure what that's about. But I think addressing it finally is going to be good. It's just hard when I'm already going through active treatment for Celiac Disease and Liver Disease.

How the fuck did I get so messed up? I'll tell you. I treat my body like shit. I had predisposed conditions that were hereditary however I fucked around for far too many years thinking I was invincible. Match that with an incredibly high pain threshold and a stubborn indifference towards medical treatment... well here I am.

This year has been rather fucked but I'm feeling positive. I look forward to tomorrow and I am going forward with the assumption that I'll have a treatment plan within the next month if not more diagnostics. I'm not going to have months of sleepless nights and try to be "strong" any longer since that was a load of shit. I was an idiot.

So if you're over the age of 18 and there is something wrong. SEE A DOCTOR!!! I have been hospitalized before because I kept thinking I had it under control! So don't be a Sarah and just deal with your shit like an adult!!!!