myhkal

feel exactly the same now as i did last night. how can it be any different? everything has slowly been diminished to just about nothing. do you realize that? tuesday nights... the ritual... ya know, it's been so long, whatever it was that we had really meant something to me... there is zero private time anymore, zero anything to call our own. that hurts.

you've got everything you want. you've blended what was ours into an environment for all of you, reduced days, instant communication and companionship while you're there. while i've been fucking shut right out. when will you decide that that which you felt comfortable with yesterday also makes you not? why should i set myself up for a fall? again.

you say we're friends. are we really? on your terms perhaps. there appears so little for me. even though i thought i was following your rules.

is it any wonder that i feel empty?