museb

let's preface this...

...happiness rarely incites me to write about it...best to be lived...

unhappiness...

...however...is best sulked and written about...

have you ever felt your own decay? like it's right under your nose...stagnance...filthy little troll in a hovel...

there is something to be done...something to change...i just don't know what yet...

(pms) i like this not at all...

................

weird...

last night, i literally bumped into my first 'serious' boyfriend who i haven't seen or thought of really in about ten years...

he's bartending in the freakin' cayman islands...he told me i should do it too...

...i have serious ties to SA, i can't leave, but in my current frame of mind i was about ready to go home...turn the gas on...pack my bag...and throw a match as i left...