"why do i fall in love with every girl that pays me the least bit of attention?" -eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
a great quote to sum up how i feel. right now i'm trying to decide this: should i ask out this one girl from my study abroad group? let's call her Girl J. the issues that arrise are that i have a relationship with a girl back home(girl A), whom i dated for about a month before i left and whom i will not get to see until august (unless i hitchhike to denver, which i am debating). my thoughts on this is, well, i'm not entirely sure. i like her(girl J) and would like to spend more time with her. i'm affraid of what would happen if things got serious. she lives rather far away and the idea of a long distance relationship does not do it for me. since the group is rather small, i would also have to worry about if things went bad. i would have to see this person everyday, along with her friends, some of which are mutual. and everyone would know about anything that happened. i'm trying to take this as easy as possible. shouldn't rush.
this weekend i'm going north to holland and plan to trip around to rotterdam, the hauge, utrecht, delft, and maybe gouda. i don't have class for the next week, so i might stay until monday or so. after that i've got my big ol' italy trip going on. am starting to have to think about money. i have plenty, but at the same time, i don't want to go back home totally broke. but i do want to visit a bunch of places. trying to find a balance.
aldi's didn't have onions. it pissed me off. the kitchen didn't have any soy sauce either, so my potatoes were missing two vital ingrediants. shall fix this tommorow.
i went to my friend joffie's photography exhibit this weekend. it was really cool. check some of his stuff out here, schizzle: www.stok-foto.nl (weblink attempt failed, just type it in yourself)
i got to talk with him and he told me all about squat laws in the netherlands, which is the has the most liberal, squater friendly laws in europe.
i'm starting to wonder if taking two seperate hour long naps a day is a bad thing. they certainly are good for staving off depression for a bit. have started to watercolor. was able to pick up some paint, brushes and paper for under 10 euro. planning to do a self portrait. need a better fine detail brush though.
i hope things are all right with demonbuttercup. last i read, she was having some problems with the passing of her mom. i've got a bit of a soft spot in my heart for her as she was the first person to request my friendship on this site.
and now: more listening to arab on radar while trying to get my paper for monday more done-er-er than its current state of 'not even started'.
last night i had a dream that this really pretty goth girl was really into me. of course it had to be just a dream.
woke up this morning and listened to 'tears are in your eyes' by yo la tengo. i always thought it was a really sad song, but then i actually payed attention to the last verse. it was a very pleasent surprise.
---
You tell me summer's here,
And the time is wrong.
You tell me winter's here and your days...
Are getting long.
Tears are in your eyes... tonight.
You tell me that you haven't,
Slept in days.
You tell me sleeping only makes you tired...
Anyway.
Tears are in your eyes... tonight.
Tears are in your eyes... every night.
***
Althought you don't believe me you're strong.
Darkness always turns into the Dawn.
And you won't even remember this for long...
When it ends allright.
Please tell me how... you know tomorrow... staring at your shoes.
***
Tears are in your eyes... every night.
Tears are in your eyes... every night.
Tears are in your eyes... tonight.
a great quote to sum up how i feel. right now i'm trying to decide this: should i ask out this one girl from my study abroad group? let's call her Girl J. the issues that arrise are that i have a relationship with a girl back home(girl A), whom i dated for about a month before i left and whom i will not get to see until august (unless i hitchhike to denver, which i am debating). my thoughts on this is, well, i'm not entirely sure. i like her(girl J) and would like to spend more time with her. i'm affraid of what would happen if things got serious. she lives rather far away and the idea of a long distance relationship does not do it for me. since the group is rather small, i would also have to worry about if things went bad. i would have to see this person everyday, along with her friends, some of which are mutual. and everyone would know about anything that happened. i'm trying to take this as easy as possible. shouldn't rush.
this weekend i'm going north to holland and plan to trip around to rotterdam, the hauge, utrecht, delft, and maybe gouda. i don't have class for the next week, so i might stay until monday or so. after that i've got my big ol' italy trip going on. am starting to have to think about money. i have plenty, but at the same time, i don't want to go back home totally broke. but i do want to visit a bunch of places. trying to find a balance.
aldi's didn't have onions. it pissed me off. the kitchen didn't have any soy sauce either, so my potatoes were missing two vital ingrediants. shall fix this tommorow.
i went to my friend joffie's photography exhibit this weekend. it was really cool. check some of his stuff out here, schizzle: www.stok-foto.nl (weblink attempt failed, just type it in yourself)
i got to talk with him and he told me all about squat laws in the netherlands, which is the has the most liberal, squater friendly laws in europe.
i'm starting to wonder if taking two seperate hour long naps a day is a bad thing. they certainly are good for staving off depression for a bit. have started to watercolor. was able to pick up some paint, brushes and paper for under 10 euro. planning to do a self portrait. need a better fine detail brush though.
i hope things are all right with demonbuttercup. last i read, she was having some problems with the passing of her mom. i've got a bit of a soft spot in my heart for her as she was the first person to request my friendship on this site.
and now: more listening to arab on radar while trying to get my paper for monday more done-er-er than its current state of 'not even started'.
last night i had a dream that this really pretty goth girl was really into me. of course it had to be just a dream.
woke up this morning and listened to 'tears are in your eyes' by yo la tengo. i always thought it was a really sad song, but then i actually payed attention to the last verse. it was a very pleasent surprise.
---
You tell me summer's here,
And the time is wrong.
You tell me winter's here and your days...
Are getting long.
Tears are in your eyes... tonight.
You tell me that you haven't,
Slept in days.
You tell me sleeping only makes you tired...
Anyway.
Tears are in your eyes... tonight.
Tears are in your eyes... every night.
***
Althought you don't believe me you're strong.
Darkness always turns into the Dawn.
And you won't even remember this for long...
When it ends allright.
Please tell me how... you know tomorrow... staring at your shoes.
***
Tears are in your eyes... every night.
Tears are in your eyes... every night.
Tears are in your eyes... tonight.