my thanksgiving break:
pretty boring, though not entirely. went to work a couple times and got a few hours in. lazyness and snow kept me from working more. i'll have a whole month and a half over winter break to drive myself crazy making copper fairies and dancers. yay. um... oh yeah (!).
did get to hang out with some friends. need to call kyel and apologize for being a dick when he asked me to be in his wedding. it was a total caught off guard, deer in the headlights "um, i will if i'm not doing anything next september". i am a heartless bastard.
got to hang with my friend lis. she's a great person. feel a little bad because she wants a copy of my zine, which incidently contains a poem that portrays her in a not to positive light. i'll have to attach a note.
i did figure out the worst type of TV ever: VH1 style countdowns. a stupid list of shit where they take a bunch of random psudo-celebreties and have them ripe on other people. more addicting than crack and possibly worse for you. watched too much TV in general. NOTE: original hanna-barbara cartoons that have adult swim counterparts seem really weird and not funny.
from what i can gather, i'm getting a shit load of bukowski for x-mas. black sparrow press versions too i believe.
didn't get shit done in terms of homework. did some anthro reading and that's about it. instead of being responsible in terms of school, i watch ren and stimpy and cowboy bebop, read 'women' and did some water color. started work on what i like to call my "anti-woman masterpiece" even though it's not anti woman and certainly not a masterpiece. dipicts a fetus hanging from an umbilical cord that dangles out of a woman's vagina. where i come up with this shit, i'll never know. just my fascination with painting gross things and weirdness.
two weeks before finals and i know i'll get my ass kicked. three papers due, one on thursday and haven't started on any of them.
updated my profile. found a huge typo on the fantasies section that totally sounded bad and was the exact opposite of what i wanted to state.
was thinking of breaking down and filling out the dating profile but was totally disgusted after i looked at it in depth. check the box? seems like a test more than anything.
i think coco's yarn set is really sexy. trying to figure out why i find myself more and more attracted to older women. think it might be because A) i can't identify/communicate with most people my age anyway and B) they seem more comfortable with themselves and aren't trying to put on some act.
that's it for now. go away.
pretty boring, though not entirely. went to work a couple times and got a few hours in. lazyness and snow kept me from working more. i'll have a whole month and a half over winter break to drive myself crazy making copper fairies and dancers. yay. um... oh yeah (!).
did get to hang out with some friends. need to call kyel and apologize for being a dick when he asked me to be in his wedding. it was a total caught off guard, deer in the headlights "um, i will if i'm not doing anything next september". i am a heartless bastard.
got to hang with my friend lis. she's a great person. feel a little bad because she wants a copy of my zine, which incidently contains a poem that portrays her in a not to positive light. i'll have to attach a note.
i did figure out the worst type of TV ever: VH1 style countdowns. a stupid list of shit where they take a bunch of random psudo-celebreties and have them ripe on other people. more addicting than crack and possibly worse for you. watched too much TV in general. NOTE: original hanna-barbara cartoons that have adult swim counterparts seem really weird and not funny.
from what i can gather, i'm getting a shit load of bukowski for x-mas. black sparrow press versions too i believe.
didn't get shit done in terms of homework. did some anthro reading and that's about it. instead of being responsible in terms of school, i watch ren and stimpy and cowboy bebop, read 'women' and did some water color. started work on what i like to call my "anti-woman masterpiece" even though it's not anti woman and certainly not a masterpiece. dipicts a fetus hanging from an umbilical cord that dangles out of a woman's vagina. where i come up with this shit, i'll never know. just my fascination with painting gross things and weirdness.
two weeks before finals and i know i'll get my ass kicked. three papers due, one on thursday and haven't started on any of them.
updated my profile. found a huge typo on the fantasies section that totally sounded bad and was the exact opposite of what i wanted to state.
was thinking of breaking down and filling out the dating profile but was totally disgusted after i looked at it in depth. check the box? seems like a test more than anything.
i think coco's yarn set is really sexy. trying to figure out why i find myself more and more attracted to older women. think it might be because A) i can't identify/communicate with most people my age anyway and B) they seem more comfortable with themselves and aren't trying to put on some act.
that's it for now. go away.
quenten:
I think maybe the main difference is that aloneness is a choice, while loneliness is thrust upon you, or rather, you find that you have stumbled into loneliness and have somehow become trapped there.