mrkillerchef

So Katie and I had our first... Fight? I guess you'd call it that. She's in a lot of pain because of a couple medical conditions she has. She's trying to get to a physical therapist for them and she's on some pain meds but they aren't helping much. She came back from her cruise and every night she's been in pain and hasn't been able to be Skype with me. I understand. We talked a bit on the phone but that's about it. I haven't gotten to talk to her much I'm the last few days even though she's been home. Its frustrating. But it is what it is. She's in pain and I know it. But she's been kinda snippy lately. Like I said a couple little things that just kinda set her off. I don't know if its just some deadly combination of her period, mixed with jet lag and all the extra pain and stress, but j started to this k maybe she doesn't want this relationship because she's not talking to me and when she does she's mad. So I asked if we could ha w a talk tonight and she lost it at me. Calling me selfish and not thinking of how much pain she's in. Basically totally reaming me out. And I guess I deserved some of it. I am being a bit selfish in wanting to talk to her while she's hurt. But any apologies I try to give just makes it look like I'm being an ass and trying to fix my mistake and not being genuine. I am genuine! I love her more than anything and I'd give anything to take her pain away. I just don't want her to hurt anymore. And I want us to be OK. I don't know what I'd do if I lost her now that I've finally found the perfect woman. Sigh... I just don't know. I'm going to give her some space and see if it helps. I love her and don't want to lose her over something so small. Well goodnight SG. Here's to hoping tomorrow is a better day