mrdeeds

I don't care that you don't care. But the fact is I do.

I am back from vacation. It was way too short, and the week long experience has shifted my point of view. I feel like I am being held back from improving my life status by my living situation. I am starting to realize there may be a way out of this, but I know I am not seeing all of the complications it would cause. The most major issue would be bases around whether or not my girlfriend of over 8 years would be willing to basically separate herself from her very attached mother to better our lives. I don't like the idea of making someone I love choose between her mother or myself, but honestly her mom is holding us back from potentially being happier.

I am also getting fed up with posting here, and trying to converse and socialize through this medium. And I know there are tons of people on here who are just enthralled to be a member, and SG is the best thing since condoms, but im not feeling it. I'm not feeling a lot of things in general. And a lot of it is me, feeling cornered and trapped. But its also you too, reading, not caring, and I guess I don't blame you, that's life. I care less than the next guy, and I always have this bullshit mask on, and it just feels heavy.