mozart720

Alotta shit happend in the past few days....a definite thing to ponder over...saw a 2 car accident....i went over (i was the first on the scene...before the police arrived) and saw the carnage.....there was a 13 year old kid that was killed..probably from the impact...and all i know is when i went over to their wrecked vehicle, i was in total shock.. .....it was really horrific.....a man in an acura integra collided into an SUV and caused all the carnage.....I never saw an SUV destroyed to this length.....when i ran over after hearing the whole collision...i saw the child in the back with his head caved in and literally his brain hanging out......totally discusting....something as of this moment, i dont think i'll get out of my head.......the boys father didn't know what to do, so I went into the vehicle, held the childs head together and begged his father to help his child until the police and recue came.....finally the father took my position and held the childs head until the first officer on the scene arrived......about 10 minutes later, two helicopters arrived to take the mother in the SUV and the child, but te child was pronounced dead pretty much as soon as the fire company came.....definitely a sad situation.....I can still hear the father screaming in my head over his only son.....Im kind of traumatized after seeing human brain all over the car and being able to do nothing to help.....the other driver i tried to help out as well....go figure, the only thing wrong with him was that his lip was split down the center, exposing his teeth and gums, and his femur (leg bone) was sticking out of his skin...another gross scene....as of right now, I have been trying to sleep at night but i am constantly awakend by the visions of the child and the carnage, along with the fathers screams.....this is the first fatal accident ive ever witnessed and i must say, was very heart-breaking.....I ended up crying after I got home over everything....I just wasnt equipt for such a desaster......I just feel so much for the family that lost their only son because they were innocent bystandards to a roadrace that happend to be passing by them on the main highway......i hope the guy who was the cause of the accident realizes the life he ended and the lifetime of sorrow the family will have. I just feel empty right now....i almost wish I could have done something more for the child, however, when the head trauma is that bad, there really is nothing you can do. Im still freaed out that I had his brain in my hand, trying to help him along before police and recue got there.....thats my journal entry for today. sorry it was so graphic... I just need to get things out....

value life....i now realize how we can lose our loved ones in a blink of an eye.

ps...todd love jesus.


Kevin