My doctor has sent me information to review about oral chemotherapy for my tumors. Guys I really don't know how to feel about these crazy medications. I don't want to turn in to a science experiment. I can't keep having surgeries either....

Avastin seems like some people do ok, but there's risks such as severe eye damage.

Idk...... Sometimes I just want to take my chances, feel like I have some control or say in what's happening to my body... Today was rough. I've had nonstop tachycardia. My chest is very tight. I wish they'd figure this shit out already.

I'm just so tired of being so tired.