My head/chest cold is getting worse. My tumor side is throbbing so loud I welcome the times this little stink climbs up on my head and purrs. I used to hate it, but it now serves to drown out the loud whooshing and throbbing this growing mass has caused in my head that seems to grow louder now by the month as pressure builds from displacement in my skull. The cold has just increased my discomfort like tenfold. I've considered going to the ER as the stabbing pain in my head and neck increase, but more so so they can maybe address the blood clots in my left arm along with the infected opening in my bellybutton now 8, almost 9weeks post op. I am a hot mess, no bones about it. I'm struggling to get stuff completed and then I start the long process of photographing, catologing and uploading each item to my store. I don't have time or energy to be sick. Waffles has been sick for 4 weeks now, and even his antibiotics aren't doing anything anymore. Last night we were both feverish. He's been sick since before Christmas. He hasn't even touched the 3D printer from Christmas, I thought for sure he'd have ran out of spool by now, lol. Nope, many things in this house remain undone, you can tell by the dog hair tumbleweeds slowly rolling down the long hallway when the fan kicks in. Sigh*. It's like a Neverending circus, and nothing seems to be getting done as illness after illness seems to keep plaguing our household 😕
As for when I do not have a cat on my head, I have decided that playing music on every Alexa in the house is my go to. I have to drown out the ringing or I'll go mad.... As inevitable deafness sets in, I feel the need to enjoy things as a semi hearing person while I can..... Knowing you're going deaf is one of the saddest, almost torturous feelings I've ever felt, as I know there's zero that can be done. Like watching a train barreling down on you, but you're paralyzed and can't jump out of the way....
I need some new songs for my Playlist. Any suggestions? I'm kinda open to a lot of things.... I'm all over the place, between Scott Matthew, deftones, flogging Molly, city and color, the lumineers, coheed, suicide machines, ludo, the God damn gallows, Mr bungle, I have a list..... We have an ongoing Spotify list of classic, sweet loving songs. Anything to add would be awesome for that ☺️
I like podcasts and audio books too. I thought about checking out getting dough with high, I love comedy.... I like Doug Stanhope too. Armchair expert is annoying, waffles loves it, but I'm not a fan, so nothing like that. Mark maron is fun.
So yeah.... Not much else. Saw a pain clinic Dr about my herniated discs, stenosis, and spine tumor. He going to look at getting an Mri of my knee, but they've ordered me some pain meds, I've been too nervous and in denial I've reached this point to take it yet, but the sciatic pain down the insides of y thighs is close to convincing me it's time.
One day at a time, right?
Love you guys. ❤️
