I am no longer making jokes and laughing about this whole situation. I tried to keep my wits about me but I no longer can withhold my sadness of this situation any longer.
I got a notice today that they have scheduled my oncology appointment for january 5th.
I never thought I would have to type or say those words.
I wanted to also say thank you all for the encouraging words and advice. I have had to break the word down for several people that keep asking me if I have cancer. Neuro-fibro-sarcoma. They need to teach latin in schools still. its really a shame.
Also: I have been diagnosed with Ehlers Danlos, which will further complicate my situation.
I cant seem to function, I don't go to work, I don't feel well. I feel dizzy and my head always hurts more and more.
I just paint. Nothing else to do. Nothing else brings me joy. I ran out of canvas yesterday and I cannot afford any so I have been using old stock from when I was a photographer and wood pieces from the garage. I dont know how else to distract myself aside from just watching tv. My gaming computer crashed and I am waiting for a new HD. I miss work....I miss home. I ish I could go back for christmas...
