Well...
Every person whom ever wanted to beat me down has won. Im officially throwing in the towel....
So if you're one of my ex's that occasionally stalks me....or some other asshole from or in my life. here it is. You win.
Im trying here and I just cant do it. i get a few feet and im immediately running back to where i started. fuck me.
seriously.
I think it is time i admitted I need help and getting therapy again. This sucks. I couldn't feel more discouraged right now and i just get zero pleasure out of life anymore.
:( I don't even feel like I belong here anymore. Im getting old and no one ever wants to take my photo and i had to cut all my hair off again. They wanted to do another round of drugs and i said no. I am now taking a hormonal supplement and trying to get my vitamin D and bone density back up and have to take potassium every day or my heart cant function properly. WTF is this life?
I wake up every day in fear of waking up.
This isnt fair.
