mothra

I know I sound like a lunatic lately, and most of you know what I'm going through... but for those who I don't see all the time here it is... I'm done being kryptic.

I saw a girl I hadn't seen in ages and within a few days I fealt like it was the best thing that ever happened to me. I had no idea what I was doing and I felt like I was in Junior High again and that was one of the best feelings I've had in my life. I took everything in stride and never made a big deal about any of the things that started bothering me, which was my mistake. One horrible night came along and I realized I really didn't know what was going on with her life, and I really couldn't deal with it till I got things together in my own. I never wanted things to be over, I just needed some time, and as much as I needed that... I also needed to see what she would do. Now I see that she was the person I was warned about, not the person I thought I met and I'm fucking bummed.

I've never played games or intentionally tried to make someone feel like shit so I don't really know how to take. As tempted as I am to resort back to being a total prick as I have been many times when I was younger, that's just going to make me feel worse and I don't have any desire to be malicious.

I wish her the best, I just don't want to see it or hear about it.

But for now I'm going to be a little emo bitch, unless someone wants to confront me about any of this... then I'll start swinging. So please don't bring it up.