mothra

Good Day/Night.

I have alot killing my mind right now, but I realized that the fact I'm making decisions is good. Be they the right or wrong decisions... at least I'm choosing.

I feel horrible that my decisions affect other people, one in particular; but I have a path I'm on that seems to be positive and that is a good thing.

I don't consider myself a bad or uncaring person. I may be a bit less empathetic than most... but I need to close myself off and drive forward.

For those who never see it, I'm a bit of a drunk and a mild diabetic. Two things that as much as they are at odds with one another have seemed to coexist quite well. I may need to quit drinking at some point, but that will include some other serious changes.

So for now, I need to be a drunken slob who watches himself really closely.

...to stop a rant, I'll just say I love everyone who regularly reads my journal. I hope you all have some drive and some direction.