I had exactly the night I needed tonight.
It was your conventional good night, just one of average beginnings. Dinner with my old roommate whom I've grown somewhat estranged with. Then an hour or two painting at home and then some bar hoping before we ended up at an empty sports bar off mill. I ruled a few games of pool and won all my beers for the night, but as 1am grew closer I kept running against that wall of stress over and over again.
So rather than take the usual ride home I opted for the solo walk. And I have to admit I needed it.
There's something really profound and enlightening about walking a few miles through nothingness in the middle of a huge city. Empty parking lots stay lit up next to empty parks that sit in complete darkness. A man made lake of sewage shows the same subtle waves as a state park lake in the middle of nowhere. And when no cars drive past you for nearly an hour on a Friday night, you know you're not someplace many people walk through.
But anyway, it makes me realize that I've made some bad choices on how, and with whom I've spent my time over the past month or so. And it also made me happy that I've been able to be there for my roommate who really neede some support, with a place to live, money here and there and most importantly on those nights he's spent on the verge of tears.
I don't claim to be a really great person, but I try when I know I can help, and even though I may be putting July's rent on my Visa card and my car may not even last through that month, I'll be OK. People have different ways of showing you they care and that they support you, and this week when I really needed it... I've seen a few ways.
It was your conventional good night, just one of average beginnings. Dinner with my old roommate whom I've grown somewhat estranged with. Then an hour or two painting at home and then some bar hoping before we ended up at an empty sports bar off mill. I ruled a few games of pool and won all my beers for the night, but as 1am grew closer I kept running against that wall of stress over and over again.
So rather than take the usual ride home I opted for the solo walk. And I have to admit I needed it.
There's something really profound and enlightening about walking a few miles through nothingness in the middle of a huge city. Empty parking lots stay lit up next to empty parks that sit in complete darkness. A man made lake of sewage shows the same subtle waves as a state park lake in the middle of nowhere. And when no cars drive past you for nearly an hour on a Friday night, you know you're not someplace many people walk through.
But anyway, it makes me realize that I've made some bad choices on how, and with whom I've spent my time over the past month or so. And it also made me happy that I've been able to be there for my roommate who really neede some support, with a place to live, money here and there and most importantly on those nights he's spent on the verge of tears.
I don't claim to be a really great person, but I try when I know I can help, and even though I may be putting July's rent on my Visa card and my car may not even last through that month, I'll be OK. People have different ways of showing you they care and that they support you, and this week when I really needed it... I've seen a few ways.
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You are a wonderful person and i care so much. You're funny as all hell, you make me smile from ear to ear, you're such an awesome genuinely sweet person to everyone from friends to family, you have given me so much courtesy and respect and i appreciate it so much.
I know i don't say it all the time, but thank you.