morbidcherry

Today was so slow today. And everyone who came in today knew I just wasn't feeling to darn good. Have you ever heard music but you just coulnd't get on beat - that was me today *OFF BEAT* One of my regulars came in and bought some under garmets for his girl and noticed I was all *ICKY* so he bought me some flowers, that made me soo happy AND they weren't roses - I so hate roses - if he woulda bought roses I prolly woulda cried but thanked him since he went out of his way to try and make me smile. *le sigh* what is going on - why have I been so sad lately - I tried to take a step back and figure out what it is but - eh - I'm too lazy. I'm usually the talkative one and out going and crap but just lately i've been a BLOB and thats NO GOOD. -
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I talked to STUMPS last night - made him cry so then I felt bad. I wish I could of held him. Our relationship goes up and down too much. And everytime I think we should break up - I realize how much I'm in love with him - and I'm not sure if I just want to give that up or not - I've put too much into the relationship to say "Fuck it" Or am I wrong?
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I need clothes
I need an all in one *fax,copy,scan.printing machine*
I need more lingerie!
SOMEONE BUY ME LINGERIE!
*cries* - I need a cig
Ima go masturbate and feel better and take a nap and chat and do other stuff

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