moonrabbit

Ok so I've been doing some thinking... Only a day's worth so I deffinatly haven't made any choices yet but...
The only thing that's really keeping me from joining the military is my hair... My long, perfect, silky smooth, drives the girls wild hair...
But i haven't exactly beeen having any luck with the ladys latly. So I don't know how much of a difference lopping it off would make. I still have lots of thinking to do. But it's in my mind.
Really without my hair I'll just be skinny kid with a buzz cut.I think I might lose a good portion of that confidence I have so much of right now. But I am lacking self respect. Which the military would help with... Yes being yelled at, and called a worthless piece of crap by a guy in a stetson while I do pushups in the rain somehow builds self respect.
I dunno. I may have just got myself thrown off track thinking of this girl. I could find myself very much messed up later on. Of course if I join up I'll likely run into her often too. I Don't think I want that. Grr I don't know... Which is why I'm not making any decisions yet. But today at work sucked, I want out of there now...
Might just be a bad day too... This is the most messed up I've been for a while.

I should work on my jewellery. If I do something productive there I might feel better about how things are going.