Today was the last day of real class this semester (I still have a final next Thursday though), and I've decided not to take a summer semester. This means I have about 3 months to do whatever I can think of. "Please," I say to myself, "do something worthwhile--have fun--don't stay indoors the whole time watching tv or infront of a computer screen--do something new...
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bionicfemme:
Thank you so much about what you said on Much Obliged in my journal! I promise to write more when I have sex again, which will be when I am 45... 
n:
thanks for telling me about brown bunny. i still haven't seen palookaville yet, but i want to soon.
As kids we all had so much enthusiasm. Where did it go? Somewhere down the line we all stopped caring.
We started talking about things that really didn't matter to us--bland, typical, over-used, distant from any sincere emotion things. "How was your day?" kind of questions. Conversations about food, pets, the wheather, etc. Replace everything with blah, blah, blah.
We talk just to talk, not...
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We started talking about things that really didn't matter to us--bland, typical, over-used, distant from any sincere emotion things. "How was your day?" kind of questions. Conversations about food, pets, the wheather, etc. Replace everything with blah, blah, blah.
We talk just to talk, not...
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whiskeyfightpit:
Seriously right on...Maybe alot of us here are thinking and feeling the same way. To be the right kinda person your passion is always the work, right? That's what were taught. But what do you say to the other flunkie rowing next to you on the slave ship? Anything else would require time away from rowing and thus totally insane. I remember that enthusiasm, too. And I miss it like hell. Something exterior has been pulling at it since high school. Like flesh from the bone, one might say. I totally feel you on this one, but what are poor rowers to do?
demigauge:
someday i will just take off...and no one will know
"You are what you love--
not what loves you."
- Donald Kaufman
not what loves you."
- Donald Kaufman
demigauge:
wel said chap
Keep it together. Keep it together.
Must not show signs of weakness.
I'm fragile material in an unmarked box.
Must not show signs of weakness.
I'm fragile material in an unmarked box.
demigauge:
*pats you on the head* things will be alright little one
This is a story about a guy who moves to a new place and hates his new school so he doesn't go. Ends up in homeschool, which leaves him devoid of any social skills which leaves him friendless which leaves him sad and disfunctional.
Later he goes to a community college to try to fix himself.
Later he wonders if it will.
He wonders if...
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Later he goes to a community college to try to fix himself.
Later he wonders if it will.
He wonders if...
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n:
but you're only 19! how can you be so cynical when you haven't even lived half your life?
Life, for me, seems not so complicated when I have a big project to work on--but it's going to be when I'm finished with it that's going to do me in.
n:
whats the project, frard?
marvin's school of breakdance?
marvin's school of breakdance?
Like little worker ants, we build and build and carry on with our little tasks in the face of the greatest intruder. God save our queen and our little hill, it's he that should know more than any how hard we've worked for them.
demigauge:
damn those ant hills*squash*
n:
a decent art scene, for one thing. oh so much more opportunity in new york for creative people. and a hell of a lot milder in winter too (which is good since i won't have a car soon!).
[Edited on May 10, 2003]
[Edited on May 10, 2003]
demigauge:
for some reason that mr.roboto song comes to mind
I can see what could be right in front of me and I want it more than anything. I know what I need to do to get there, but the question is will I have the energy to do it. I don't want to feel out of control anymore. I want to feel confident and trust myself to handle things on my own. It's too...
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n:
eh- you and i both. well you're still very young. not that i'm old but you got a few more years than me to go after your goals/aspirations.
raven:
oh shit. i forgot about mother's day!! when was it? did i miss it? im such a bad daughter.
we should all use our imaginations untill they're exhausted. that's what being human is all about folks.
demigauge:
no i like to keep y imagination around for a long long time
"Call now and recieve a limited edition Yanni key chain with your paid order"
demigauge:
*screams in pain*
hurrumph.. I've been losing it lately, just not being able to make sense of things. It starts out from little things and snowballs out of control. I keep digging and digging and then when I see I'm down deep I start to try climb my way back up. What's the purpose of digging holes anyways?
It's all about interpretting peoples reactions towards you--the "looking glass...
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pigtails:
Ya, I'm trying to kill myself...first it was cigarettes, that was too slow so now it's motorcycles.
demigauge:
merf...i just don't care about the world and try to live my life day to day
this makes me sound heartless eh?
[Edited on May 02, 2003]
this makes me sound heartless eh?
[Edited on May 02, 2003]