monroe

Ugh.

I'm a wreck right now. I feel like I just started from page one again. I am trying to keep my head up, but it's hard.

I don't know why this being abroad thing is so difficult for me. I know everything is going to be perfectly fine with Brian and I, if not better. I know that I'll have home forever again in five weeks. I won't have this hanging over my head, wondering "What if I had done it?" My mom wil be here in less than two. But my heart still feels like it's going to give out at any second. This has been so emotionally draining.

Happy pills...I need happy pills. Where can I get them?



In other news, my roommates are a little bizarre. I slept on the couch the past two nights because I'd been feeling pretty sick. Today my roommates told me we needed to have a talk. They then proceeded to tell me that they don't want me sleeping on the couch while I'm sick because they're afraid of germs. Uh...okay?

I need to come home, like NOW.

Love,
Monroe