monroe

It was Eva's birthday yesterday, so Brian and I stopped by her party for a bit and then went back to his house. He got me two dozen roses "for being everything I ever wanted and more." That totally made my day. We saw some guy at the 7-11 who looked like Santa and he heard me say that and I thought he was going to kill me but he smiled and nodded his head at me. That also made my day. (I was a little drunk) But not as much as the flowers. They're beautiful.

I don't want to go to London!!! Every time I'm with Brian I can't help but think "What if the distance and time is too much, and these next few weeks are the last time I'll ever get to spend with him" I think it will be okay though...but I don't know. For instance, there's some girl he works with who likes him and it doesn't really bother me now, but I worry while I'm gone he'll get sick of waiting and want someone who will be there every day, you know? He is quite simply the love of my life and the thought of losing him makes me like, physically ill. I'm lame I know, but I can't help it.

My weave is highly irritating. It makes my head itchy. I can't deal with it.

I am so thirsty but we have nothing to drink. Rawr.

I feel like ass today

Love,
Jess