I'm so FUCKING glad 2005 is over. This year has been a thousand times better already and nothing all that great has even happened. Since I'm not in the mood to repost what kind of year it was...here's journal entry I wrote on the matter. I hope all of you had a better year...and I hope 2006 is stellar to make up for any bullshit that happened to you last year.
I wrote this about a week before New Years.
This has been one of those years where it's been hard to see the good stuff because the bad has been so thick.
It's been one of those years where the bad stuff doesn't just make ya a little sad or bring a cute little tear to the eye. It's been the type of sad that makes your chest heavy...that makes you forget to breathe. The type of sad that is beyond tears. Tears are insignificant...that's what people do when Old Yeller gets put down...this is the sad that makes you wish you could cry because it would mean you're feeling something...anything. It has been the type sad that makes you stare at a blank wall because you know that the longer you stare at it...the longer nothing bad will happen.
It's been one of those years that make normal depressing crap look like a walk in the damn park with a super model.
It's been the type of year where things were said and done that never get taken back or forgotten.
It's been a dog eat dog screw you stab your buddy in the back with his own knife sort of year.
It's been the sort of year that almost manifests itself as some sort of demented physical form of evil.
It's been a year that crushes dreams and rapes innocence and I'm damn sick of it.
This year can kiss my ass, but more than that...I won't be happy until it kisses your ass and apologizes to you for daring to exist. I can honestly think of about seven good things that have happened this year for me and mine so if you've got some great story...this is your "light 'em if you got 'em moment to shine and prove me wrong by posting here. I dare you.
Here's my list of "the sun shined for a few seconds" big good events.
Sean and Becky had a son. They deserve it and I couldn't be happier for them. This is one of the few events that I can honestly look back and say "I'm glad that happened". You two are an inspiration to me and a lot of people around you and I wish you the best.
My friend Heather got pregnant. That's a big deal and it's awesome.
Michael and Kendall. My brother met a cool girl and they fell in love. Rad.
Chris went to Pittsburgh. He met some cool people and I'm happy for him.
I met up with some old friends...and made a FEW new ones. This is probably the only one you'll see me type that directly involves me. Most of the good things that have happened to me this year (boo freaking hoo) have been to other people that made me smile. I did however meet up with some cool friends. At times it has been complicated but I'm definitely counting this event as a plus. Without these people this year would simply be the year that refused to die a horrible death to make me happy.
Radio 1 played some shows. This is bittersweet at best because as fast as it was the greatest thing to happen to me this year it went away because there are selfish people in the world that only want to ruin other peoples lives out of spite. This little happy truth has made it hard for us to get anywhere this year. We are however not giving up and plan on giving the non believers a giant foam "finger" sort of like those ones you used to use at football games. If anyone want to get me something for Christmas they can get me one of those that says "BURN IN HELL 2005".
That's it folks. Those were the spikes that took things above the nominal line this year. Sure some good movies came out but that only brought things above surface for short two hour spirts. I'm not counting them. I'll tell you what I am counting though on my "reasons 2005 needs to go the hell away right now" list. Mr. Miyagi (Pat Morita), Scotty (James Doohan), Richard Pryor...yeah, all dead. Screw that.
I did get to see some family that lives far away and that made the year tolerable. Without that simple fact this is the sort of year people don't walk away from...and in some cases didn't.
I wish people would stop screwing people over for a few seconds of satisfaction.
I wish 2005 wouldn't exist. I want two 2004's and a 2006 thank you. 2004 was lame as well but it wasn't this bad.
I want my friends to be happy.
I want my family to be safe.
I want my damn Grandfather back.
I want this year to die a horrible death and be forgotten on the pages of history.
I want to beat this year in the face with my fist until it goes numb.
I hope this year gets aids.
I wrote this about a week before New Years.
This has been one of those years where it's been hard to see the good stuff because the bad has been so thick.
It's been one of those years where the bad stuff doesn't just make ya a little sad or bring a cute little tear to the eye. It's been the type of sad that makes your chest heavy...that makes you forget to breathe. The type of sad that is beyond tears. Tears are insignificant...that's what people do when Old Yeller gets put down...this is the sad that makes you wish you could cry because it would mean you're feeling something...anything. It has been the type sad that makes you stare at a blank wall because you know that the longer you stare at it...the longer nothing bad will happen.
It's been one of those years that make normal depressing crap look like a walk in the damn park with a super model.
It's been the type of year where things were said and done that never get taken back or forgotten.
It's been a dog eat dog screw you stab your buddy in the back with his own knife sort of year.
It's been the sort of year that almost manifests itself as some sort of demented physical form of evil.
It's been a year that crushes dreams and rapes innocence and I'm damn sick of it.
This year can kiss my ass, but more than that...I won't be happy until it kisses your ass and apologizes to you for daring to exist. I can honestly think of about seven good things that have happened this year for me and mine so if you've got some great story...this is your "light 'em if you got 'em moment to shine and prove me wrong by posting here. I dare you.
Here's my list of "the sun shined for a few seconds" big good events.
Sean and Becky had a son. They deserve it and I couldn't be happier for them. This is one of the few events that I can honestly look back and say "I'm glad that happened". You two are an inspiration to me and a lot of people around you and I wish you the best.
My friend Heather got pregnant. That's a big deal and it's awesome.
Michael and Kendall. My brother met a cool girl and they fell in love. Rad.
Chris went to Pittsburgh. He met some cool people and I'm happy for him.
I met up with some old friends...and made a FEW new ones. This is probably the only one you'll see me type that directly involves me. Most of the good things that have happened to me this year (boo freaking hoo) have been to other people that made me smile. I did however meet up with some cool friends. At times it has been complicated but I'm definitely counting this event as a plus. Without these people this year would simply be the year that refused to die a horrible death to make me happy.
Radio 1 played some shows. This is bittersweet at best because as fast as it was the greatest thing to happen to me this year it went away because there are selfish people in the world that only want to ruin other peoples lives out of spite. This little happy truth has made it hard for us to get anywhere this year. We are however not giving up and plan on giving the non believers a giant foam "finger" sort of like those ones you used to use at football games. If anyone want to get me something for Christmas they can get me one of those that says "BURN IN HELL 2005".
That's it folks. Those were the spikes that took things above the nominal line this year. Sure some good movies came out but that only brought things above surface for short two hour spirts. I'm not counting them. I'll tell you what I am counting though on my "reasons 2005 needs to go the hell away right now" list. Mr. Miyagi (Pat Morita), Scotty (James Doohan), Richard Pryor...yeah, all dead. Screw that.
I did get to see some family that lives far away and that made the year tolerable. Without that simple fact this is the sort of year people don't walk away from...and in some cases didn't.
I wish people would stop screwing people over for a few seconds of satisfaction.
I wish 2005 wouldn't exist. I want two 2004's and a 2006 thank you. 2004 was lame as well but it wasn't this bad.
I want my friends to be happy.
I want my family to be safe.
I want my damn Grandfather back.
I want this year to die a horrible death and be forgotten on the pages of history.
I want to beat this year in the face with my fist until it goes numb.
I hope this year gets aids.