monkeypox

ive come to a suicidegirl.com journal posting dilema. or maybe its just on online community in general dilema. this is the first on line journal ive ever kept and in truth its probably the most time ive ever spent on line. i joined this site thinking that i would remain mostly anon. not due to a lack of interaction with the site and others on it, but mostly due to the infrequency of time i spend on the site as compared to other members. for the most part this is still true. i began posting my journals and read thru some of the others making comments when i see fit. as a result people have started to occasionally comment on my writings. now for you old timers, this process has already been dealt with, so im sure this seems amaturish, and i suppose it is. when people start to comment on my writings it really draws me into the whole community concept even more. ive made some online friends. i have started to develop ideas of what some some of the personalites on this site may be like. ive become more interested in the writings of some of those personalites. and as such i comment more to try and make more contatcts. now ive come to a point where i realize that at times it almost seems like a competition for peoples attention out there and this is one aspect im beginning not to like. if anyone is reading this i hope im not offending anyone. this is just my thought process and as such its being expressed as it developes. like i stated above - im an amature - a newbe - whatever the terms are. i do want to remain a part of this site, but i dont want to make meaningless posts and pointless comments just to keep my name active and in peoples conciousness. if i dont have anything to say dont think it equals i dont care.