monkeypox

ive been sleeping with an unopened can of mug rootbeer floating around in my bed for over a week now. everytime i think "mmm root beer" i realize its warm. when ever i roll over in the middle of the nite and think " god damn root beer can" im too sleepy to move it. when ever i see it during the day and think...
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aww, crap - im catching a friggin cold! i can just feel crappy soar throat already starting. the sneezing, the achyness. arghhhh, i hate being sick!

well, well, well, it seems its really go time for the ole avelster. its do or die, its time to make it or brake it, shit or get off the pot, put my money were my mouth is, wait i have no money, so that one doesnt apply!

ummm, where was i? oh yea, i gotta get my ass in gear, no more fuckin around,...
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thats right yesterday was my birthday! i spent the day eating cheese and drinking. now i feel like crap. i think i plan to sleep thru this next year.

ive posted this befor but its still true. i only tend to wite things down when im upset or depressed or mad or experiencing any range of negative emotions, but hopefully as some of you who have actually met me can attest to-im not actally a single dimentional person. in fact writing is one of the only ways i feel comfortable expressing/purging negitivity. in all...
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well i feel like im becoming more and more introverted every day. im not sure if my actions reflect this or not as i find myself in strange situations with strange people just in the hopes of keeping myself entertained. its a distraction i suppose while its happening, but mostly its depressing and kinda dangerous.

i hate that my mobility (and just about everything else)...
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ok, well, im back in seattle now. and im bored. still no working transportaiton, no money and no life.

wont sombody please entertain me?

ok well im back on the ole sg site here, but i leave seattle tomarrow at noon. thats right the vis-q's and i are hittin the proverbial road. dont worry its just a short trip down the best coast. (i think ill leave that typo in) well be back soon enough! if you get really lonely you can check out the action at www.visqueenonline.com

there,...
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ok - it looks like im back. although im not exactly sure why. i cant afford to be here and my attitude hasnt really improved.

self loathing is so easy!

i hate myself. i hate my life. and chances are i hate you. sound like fun. i bet!