mondenkind

well sadly i'm leaving suicidegirls yet again.

no $$$ again.

but i'll be back. hopefully sooner than later.

see ya, kidds

i change my mind. degrassi sucks.

i'm watching DAGRASSI JUNIOR HIGH on dvd, a friend of my roommates brought it over the other day...i've heard about it from people thru the years. on here it gets mentioned a lot, the punkrock crowd. and....yes. it is a damn good show. SAVED BY THE BELL, but actually GOOD. the canadian's version. i'm both glad that it exists, and pissed off doubly that i...
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new years turned out to be not bad. i was really freaking out about it. but the reason i was freaking out about it got resolved, somewhat.

i've proclaimed my love. now all i can do is wait for her answer.

fuck new years, man -- fuck it !!!!

what a rollercoaster of a day. it started off with such promise. i was so happy thru some of it. so fucking god-damn happy.

and then it ended in a pile of flaming white-hot pain. emotional pain.

love, not unrequieted...but uneven. too uneven for what i feel.
and it's killing me, man. fucking killing me.

my advice if you are male: do not get too...
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i rejoined in a semi-delirious fit of christmas-morning extravaganza. i almost immediately felt mixed things about it. since september i've heard that suicidegirls treats their girls terribly. and tha tthe guy who runs it is a real asshole. which ruins the whole point of the site. the point of the site was freedom goddamnit. but apparantly this place is just a wolf in sheep's clothing....
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well sadly this journal must end. i'm too poor. adios, folks

fun night last night at the Triple Rock's 241's. fun fun fun. fun had by all.

an old fling was there, i thought it might be awkward or ugly. but, it was easy as pie. no hard feelings. and i even got a wonderful massage she is definately a sweetheart.

after i finish reading Moby Dick i have to go and get the new Bret E. Ellis book Lunar Park. never read him before, tho i loved American Psycho the film version, which i figure is entirely different from the novel as is usual. Lunar Park's been getting a lot of press, including here at the sight. but besides that fact, it does seem interesting....
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watching SCARFACE

healthy again -- except for slight headache which i took an ibuprofen for, and is now going away. made it to the 24-hour Rainbow on Lake street and bought some coke, and drinking it has improved my mood so much so that my suspicions about coke are re-newed. there really is an evil drug in it that makes it do what it does.

my energy...
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