I know I'm in a world of shit now. Things between Kasey and I have improved since I found out that she is in her own place. We're already discussing getting together for nights of alcoholic fun. One of the young ladies at work and I are also starting to heat things up. We had the discussion about when a woman tells you they are single, when they give you their history, and when you know they are interested.
Let's just say that prior to last night, I had never seen her smoke. The last 2 days, every time one of us are given permission to go have a smoke break, the other isn't far behind. We even gesture to each other that we are going out. We both also sorta have someone else, although we are in similar relationships, in other words, no strings attached. Although she probably won't even have that after tonight. Her sorta bf is being an ass, and believing what others are saying.
It brought her to tears tonight, and I was the only person she would say anything at length to about it. She also started giving me hugs during our conversations. We're clicking the same way that Kasey and I always have. It's starting to scare me a bit. I love Kasey and Abbi to death, as I'm sure everyone knows by now. April and I are quite a pair as well. We've only worked together for a short period of time, but we are almost best friends already. She has even invited me to a concert coming up. It's almost as if we've known each other our entire lives, instead of a matter of months. The age difference is my biggest concern though. There is a 9 year age gap between Kasey and I, which scares me, but there is 11 years between April and I. She has told me that she's never really dated anyone who wasn't her age, but she has also realized that most of them are little boys.
I'm still not sure if I should just dateboth of them, or if I should simply wait for Kasey to say that she is ready for a committment. If I date April as well, I fear that she and I will decide we want to be together, and Kasey will get hurt worse than she has already. At the same time though, I know that Kasey wants to be together, but isn't ready to handle the devotion I have to her. As starnge as it sounds, I feel guilty every time I go to a strip club. I feel like I'm cheating on Kasey, although she tells me to go, the same as she says it's ok if I go out with other women.
I know I have to figure things out soon though. I'm gonna go nuts otherwise.
Let's just say that prior to last night, I had never seen her smoke. The last 2 days, every time one of us are given permission to go have a smoke break, the other isn't far behind. We even gesture to each other that we are going out. We both also sorta have someone else, although we are in similar relationships, in other words, no strings attached. Although she probably won't even have that after tonight. Her sorta bf is being an ass, and believing what others are saying.
It brought her to tears tonight, and I was the only person she would say anything at length to about it. She also started giving me hugs during our conversations. We're clicking the same way that Kasey and I always have. It's starting to scare me a bit. I love Kasey and Abbi to death, as I'm sure everyone knows by now. April and I are quite a pair as well. We've only worked together for a short period of time, but we are almost best friends already. She has even invited me to a concert coming up. It's almost as if we've known each other our entire lives, instead of a matter of months. The age difference is my biggest concern though. There is a 9 year age gap between Kasey and I, which scares me, but there is 11 years between April and I. She has told me that she's never really dated anyone who wasn't her age, but she has also realized that most of them are little boys.
I'm still not sure if I should just dateboth of them, or if I should simply wait for Kasey to say that she is ready for a committment. If I date April as well, I fear that she and I will decide we want to be together, and Kasey will get hurt worse than she has already. At the same time though, I know that Kasey wants to be together, but isn't ready to handle the devotion I have to her. As starnge as it sounds, I feel guilty every time I go to a strip club. I feel like I'm cheating on Kasey, although she tells me to go, the same as she says it's ok if I go out with other women.
I know I have to figure things out soon though. I'm gonna go nuts otherwise.
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yeah, like i said we could do diamonds or this other strip club closer called babydolls. ill drive even, no biggie. or at least we should do food after...i wanna do a lil somethin after the show!
and i got a 2 XL for ya then!