mmmitsryan

I hate this feeling. The feeling of being numb like. Kinda like an empty shell feeling. I absolutely hate this feeling. I have no actual friends anymore. I mean I'm a nerd and all and LOVE video games and drinking, but that's all anyone does and I don't get invited anymore. I'm always everyone's last choice to hangout with. No girl wants to date me, or if they do they live hour(s) away or different states. I'm also afraid of being used and cheated on again. I have the shittiest job. I'm overworked, underpaid and treated like crap. I don't deserve that. I despise a lot of people/things anymore. I just wish I could get a break for once. Meet a nice girl, get an interview somewhere, and actually have someone who wants to hangout. I'm in dire need of cheering up. I'm on the verge of tears. That feeling of being numb is gone and now its just sadness. Someone cheer me up. :,(