I have returned from the murky depths that were...well, yesterday. I'm feeling much better now that I've reflected on the past. We can think about the past and the future, but the present is what's important. Live for today. We might die tomorrow. Music really helped pull me out of my funk too. It's amazing the way it can pick you up, and just as...
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Sheesh......a day of thinking about the things I've done wrong in my life. All I've been doing today is feeling like I've let myself down with the path I've taken......I need to pick myself up and go forward, instead of digging a hole of self resentment deeper and deeper.....I don't mean to feel sorry for myself, but there are good and bad days, and this...
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monet:
Oh hun, that's the worst feelng, I know. I sometimes think like that. Sometimes, I feel so guilty. I hate the feeling and it kills me. And my past is definitly not something that I like to think about. Too much sadness! But I hope you feel better, and I don't think you sound like you're feeling sorry for yourself. And even if you did, so what? Who the hell is going to tell you what to do and how to feel. It's one day, and you need to take care of yourself.
crazygrrl:
One of the hardest things we've ever had to learn is how to forgive ourselves.
I've got one whopper of a headache right now.....I don't think staring at this screen with no light on and wearing headphones listening to H.I.M. is helping anything......I've also been coughing like crazy the last two days and feeling sorta lightheaded......I've been joking that it's SARS, but I don't think that's a laughing matter. So I've been in a funk for a few days now.....a...
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crazygrrl:
I was sick a few weeks ago and continually joked about having SARS too. Then I realized it was just an ear infection. Scary stuff that SARS and I probably shouldn't joke about it either.
Yeah, I don't get along with my mother one bit. I always feel a bit of envy for those who do. Consider yourself lucky.
Yeah, I don't get along with my mother one bit. I always feel a bit of envy for those who do. Consider yourself lucky.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! Yay. So I bought my mom this phat card, and she liked what I wrote, and I took her and let her buy a bunch of flowers to plant, seeing as how just giving her a bouquet would be kinda pointless, because they would just die.....Then I took her with me to Bonaventure cemetary, where I took a bunch of pics, some...
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crazygrrl:
I'm envious of your family! You seem to have a great relationship with your mom too. Maybe I'd feel differently about Mother's day if I had that.
"pooping sugar cubes..." I will have to use that sometime. It made me chuckle.
"pooping sugar cubes..." I will have to use that sometime. It made me chuckle.
It was around midnight and I just couldn't stop thinking about my father. He passed away in 98, from cancer. He didn't deserve it, but who does? He was a great man. Caring, decent, wonderful father who had the kind of spirit I only wish I could portray. If only I could have one last conversation with him, I would beg him to forgive me...
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justlittleolme:
Yes.
Yes.
Thank you *blushing*
Oh, and I forgot my camera
Yes.
Thank you *blushing*
Oh, and I forgot my camera
monet:
You're on my list too. Thanks for the compliment. IT made me feel good!
I just had to put down an insane snake a few minutes ago......I went outside and there it was.....creeping toward the kittens......I don't consider those four kittens really mine, but I couldn't just sit back and do nothing, so I acted vigilantly.....is that a word? Anyway, Kat, the mother, is really a brave momma cat......she kept walking all up in the snake's face like "whut?"...
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Today was a day like any other.....or at least it has been so far......bought some earrings yesterday from Goodwill, then started thinking, "should I really be buying earrings from Goodwill?" But what the hell, did anyway. My throat has been fucked up for a day or two for no reason at all, I guess just to mess with me, seeing as my curse comes and...
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When it started
I was so foolish
I thought my life was a game
Full of girls, and love, and happiness
All these times that I've spent here
Riding bicycles on sky high ropes
Never letting the crowd see
All these frowns under my painted smile
All these things never gave what I needed
So I search for a new cast of clowns
So farewell...
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I was so foolish
I thought my life was a game
Full of girls, and love, and happiness
All these times that I've spent here
Riding bicycles on sky high ropes
Never letting the crowd see
All these frowns under my painted smile
All these things never gave what I needed
So I search for a new cast of clowns
So farewell...
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miss_piss:
lovely rings
and watch
hi
and watch
hi
morgan:
i haven't worn glasses since I was about...13 I guess. I don't even remember what it was like when i first started wearing contacts but I guess i got used to em!
Tomorrow I'm going to go all about town and stick SG stickers on any and everything I see. If I see a dog, sticker on him. Midget? Sticker. Fire hydrant? Stickerized. I'll take pics to prove it too........yeehaw!
Wish me luck........
Wish me luck........
mia:
making out in public.
alisa:
to answer you question about being picked on: yes. i grew up in a very conservative and restrictive middle class black family. some of my earliest memories are of fighting with my tyrannical dictator of a grandmother about who i was and who she said i was and going to be. i've always felt that i was different. i grew up listening to hard/dark rock and punk music with my uncle & we used to have to sneak off to his attic bedroom to listen to them so she wouldn't overhear us. everyone else in my family is still to this day scared to death of her disapproval.
my nickname for my whole family was: white sheep. and then when i grew up and went to public schools i was always being called a traitor to my race and being accused of acting white. it only got worse when i realized that i was attracted mostly to white punk rock skater guys. then it was always the teasing and taunts of: "what? aren't the brothers good enough for you?" or they'd call me an uppity-nigger saying that i was trying to be white. i've always had to fight to be who i am and now that i'm older i realize that i like who i fought for. and i'm not about to change it no matter how old i get.
sorry i'm ranting. that's it. i say fuck 'em if they can't handle who you are.
xxx
alisa
my nickname for my whole family was: white sheep. and then when i grew up and went to public schools i was always being called a traitor to my race and being accused of acting white. it only got worse when i realized that i was attracted mostly to white punk rock skater guys. then it was always the teasing and taunts of: "what? aren't the brothers good enough for you?" or they'd call me an uppity-nigger saying that i was trying to be white. i've always had to fight to be who i am and now that i'm older i realize that i like who i fought for. and i'm not about to change it no matter how old i get.
sorry i'm ranting. that's it. i say fuck 'em if they can't handle who you are.
xxx
alisa
I forgot to mention that yesterday morning I got up just to notice that I had locked my keys in my car for the fifth time in about the last four months......good thing my insurance covers Pop-A-Lock.....I put some pics on that kewl new My Pics thing on the profile page......it's neat to just check out other peoples pics that delve a little deeper into...
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Lessee.......man, there are so many cats around here now I need to start an animal farm....I would much rather have a dog, a big ole furry long floppy tongued dog. They show so much more affection. I had a dream last night that my cell phone was set on vibrate and in my left front jeans pocket, and it kept going off constantly. Then I...
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adobe:
Yeah, same here, I have an affinity for pups, not kitties. Ruff-ruff-bow-wow-yippee-oh-yippee-a.
opahl:
My camera is a Fujifilm something or other. It's a really great little camera.
Man, Savannah is about as exciting as watching The Golden Girls. No, even they have more fun than I do. I have to struggle to find interesting things to do around here. What do you guys and girls do for fun on days when you can't really think of what to do? Just random crazy things? Tell me something fun to do that doesn't require...
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louise:
savannah is famous for it's ghosts! go ghost-hunting, of course
ding...you are my new friend...you can feel privaledged if ya want to. but its not a requirement. now, add me, damnit!
[Edited on May 14, 2003]