I had a dream last night that I was in the top floor
of a hospital, where I wasn't supposed to be, and it
was some sort of ward for old people on their way
out of this world. I was sneaking around looking at
them in despair, like I was really feeling pain for them.
I was so sad, and my brother was with...
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of a hospital, where I wasn't supposed to be, and it
was some sort of ward for old people on their way
out of this world. I was sneaking around looking at
them in despair, like I was really feeling pain for them.
I was so sad, and my brother was with...
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Monkey on my back, thy name is depression.....I dunno, what's wrong with me. Lately I haven't wanted to do much more than sleep and eat. I tried to go out today and find stuff to do, but I ended up getting mad at everything, like I hated the world or something, and then just turned around and came home to sulk. It's almost like I'm...
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deadish:
poor mindless, i know how you feel, the last few weeks i haven't had much reason to go out the house so just stayed in and made excuses not to when asked...i wondered for a while if i was becoming agoraphobic but i think i just like being lazy at the moment but at the same time i feel bad about it. The shop is coming on, i have a good chance of getting the property i want this time. of course you can come work for me! provided you join proverbial anger poo...
rose:
Oh nos. My weeks has been so manic depresive. I think that is why I loose interest in my journal and become far more vague each time I update. I hear you on the resting some more thing, headed that way myself.
xoxo Rose
xoxo Rose
Lately I've felt like tearing off all of my skin, in the hopes that I could grow a new healing layer that hasn't been through all of the emotional wreckage and been beaten and bruised for years......I think maybe a hard outer shell, sort of like an armadillo. Ball myself up and let all of the anger and hate and backbiting and pain bounce right...
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crazygrrl:
I hate thinking...
deadish:
r u ok mr mindless? u've not posted in a while, I so know that destined to be alone feeling, so much so i just cant handle relationships, just kinda hoping it goes away with age or something.
I love your metaphors by the way, anger poo?!! u should be a pro! 
I love your metaphors by the way, anger poo?!! u should be a pro!
It's six thirty eight on Tuesday morning. I couldn't sleep too well. I worked yesterday from 5:45 in the morning till 7:00 last night, and I was so sore trying to sleep that I got up. Damn I hate working. I feel like I was drinking all night or something. Quinne's new set is the only thing not making me lose my mind right now......I...
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monet:
WOw, you've got it bad with the love bebbah!
Oh hunnay, that was the funniest comment I've ever read in my journal. YOu are so funny, the fact that you said "cow's teat" was just the best. Oh mamma. YOu made me laugh so hard. I hope everything works out for you.
Oh hunnay, that was the funniest comment I've ever read in my journal. YOu are so funny, the fact that you said "cow's teat" was just the best. Oh mamma. YOu made me laugh so hard. I hope everything works out for you.
deadish:
hey sweetie, i've missed reading ur journal! thanks for ur comments, i was stoked to find 15 comments when i got to log in again! let me know if ur friend responds to you telling her ur in love with her, i have a similar dilemma type situation.
Ok, so maybe I did throw the "I love you lever" too soon. Way too soon. But she was all about it, so what was I to do? I tried earlier to say that I don't use that phrase lightly, and that we should wait to say that. But she kept bringing it up. The golden sparkle of her hair, the deep dark blue eyes,...
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monet:
Awwe hunnay! I hope everything keeps going for the good. That's kinda weird that she keeps briniging it up! hmmmmm. If I were her, I'd keep it at a low until you feel comfortable. But I'm sure she means well. Good luck.
I seem to be neglecting my journal as of late.....sorry everyone, I love you! Speaking of love, Jennifer is really trying to squeeze that word outta me, and last night she finally succeeded. Damnit. I feel that it may have been premature though. I know I feel something different than any previous, but love? I dunno.....anyhoo, have any of you ever told someone you love...
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monet:
Nooo...come back you won't be back forever! Oooh ouch, you pulled the "early love" lever! Not the safest, but i'm sure that everything will be fine! Don't worry.
I miss you. You're never around anymore...you know, I thought we were friends. We just don't talk like we used to. Things just aren't the same. I think something's changed. Between us I mean. I don't know what to do with myself these days and nights. Longing for your presence. Oh god the humanity!
Ha....just kidding hunnay. Talk to you soon!
I miss you. You're never around anymore...you know, I thought we were friends. We just don't talk like we used to. Things just aren't the same. I think something's changed. Between us I mean. I don't know what to do with myself these days and nights. Longing for your presence. Oh god the humanity!
Ha....just kidding hunnay. Talk to you soon!
druj:
I have been in situation before and it's never an easy ride. I have found that one should never use those words unless you know with all of your heart and soul that it's true.
I am so tired it hurts. Yet I don't want to go to sleep.
Snow's new set is amazing. I don't like my hair. I bought two new shirts today. I didn't try them on when I got them, and when I got home one was a bit too tight. Jennifer likes me a whole lot. Almost too much. I don't know how to deal....
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Snow's new set is amazing. I don't like my hair. I bought two new shirts today. I didn't try them on when I got them, and when I got home one was a bit too tight. Jennifer likes me a whole lot. Almost too much. I don't know how to deal....
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beckadarling:
i love your fantasy, ambition like that is hard to come by.
mistressmissy:
i hate mtv all together
i dont question what they do
i dont question what they do
I've been pretty busy hanging out with Jennifer
lately, so I haven't updated ye olde journal....but here I am! Life has been pretty good. The girl likes me. She really likes me. We're going out to get pizza at a lil place called Vinnie Van Go Go's tonight, and walking around downtown......simple, yet effective. I've been on a Depeche Mode kick the last few days,...
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lately, so I haven't updated ye olde journal....but here I am! Life has been pretty good. The girl likes me. She really likes me. We're going out to get pizza at a lil place called Vinnie Van Go Go's tonight, and walking around downtown......simple, yet effective. I've been on a Depeche Mode kick the last few days,...
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druj:
Vinnie's is GOOD!! have fun!
monet:
Yeah in a couple of months...you'll see my naughties! hehehe. Thanks hunnay for the compliment! Havin' fun with your new girlie?
I've come to the conclusion that everything must
happen for a reason. Or at least it is my sincerest
hope that it does. Maybe even that hotdog that you
drop onto your favorite shirt has some small part in
the vast scheme fo things. You never know. I've
had three chances with this girl I'm seeing now and
I just find it funny that we've...
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happen for a reason. Or at least it is my sincerest
hope that it does. Maybe even that hotdog that you
drop onto your favorite shirt has some small part in
the vast scheme fo things. You never know. I've
had three chances with this girl I'm seeing now and
I just find it funny that we've...
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admitourmistakes:
NOTHING is wrong with pinprick, that's why I commented on it silly. I liked it
alisa:
YAY YAY YAY!!! for true love. it took ours 13 years to finally happen and i've never been happier with my love life ever! i hope that you guys are as happy as we are together. 
The Love List, presented by MindlessAutomaton....
I LOVE my mother.
I LOVE music that moves the soul.
I LOVE the exorcism that comes from crying.
I LOVE those quiet times by myself.
I LOVE people who love me.
I LOVE The Cure.
I LOVE girls who are comfortable in jeans and a tshirt.
I LOVE writing out my thoughts and feelings.
I LOVE websites that...
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I LOVE my mother.
I LOVE music that moves the soul.
I LOVE the exorcism that comes from crying.
I LOVE those quiet times by myself.
I LOVE people who love me.
I LOVE The Cure.
I LOVE girls who are comfortable in jeans and a tshirt.
I LOVE writing out my thoughts and feelings.
I LOVE websites that...
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crazygrrl:
The first one is so sweet. I was always told that a man who loves his mother means trouble.
monet:
This is my favorite entry ever, from you. Awwwe, it makes me smile so much. I love you too darling!
I have been inspired by Quinne Suicide, that lovable SG with the killer smile, to do my own love and hate lists, so here is the hate list......
I HATE: A LIST OF PAIN BY MINDLESS
AUTOMATON........
I hate the fact that I am jealous of lovers
I hate that my hair is so straight
I hate you don't love me back
I hate that...
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I HATE: A LIST OF PAIN BY MINDLESS
AUTOMATON........
I hate the fact that I am jealous of lovers
I hate that my hair is so straight
I hate you don't love me back
I hate that...
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deadish:
where's ur love list? I think ur nose is a good nose, you're pretty cute y'know....
quinne:
oooo how lovely that i could inspire someone
i think everyone needs to make love hate poem lists
i think everyone needs to make love hate poem lists
If I were a Chicken, I think I would want to be served over a bed of yellow rice, with a side of veggies and a roll, and eaten by Milla Jovovich......what a way to go........
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monet:
If you were a chicken I'd keep you in my house and hold you in my hands. I took care of a baby chick in high school. I fell in love, it was so cute and sweet. Hahahahah, they're funny too, in such a lovable way!
deadish:
If i were a monkey i'd be one of those little teeny ones with a teeny fez and waistcoat like in indiana jones, hopefully a pirate would own me and share his booty..hehe
that is pretty intense, though. and you know i don't even think satan could have been that cruel as to make those things. i think they were sent by aliens to weed out the incredibly stupid.