hi
I just wanted to apologize for being so depressing lately.
I have truly been having a hard time.
The public denunciations of sexual assaults hit me hard.
Got even more flashbacks and nightmares now.
I finally left my abusive bf and that was so hard and I’m fucking sad because I love him so much but I know it’s for the best.
On top of that, my worst abuser, my own brother, decided to come back into my life, he used the fact I was in a low point to make me feel even worse. Like having the flashbacks and all the nightmares about what he did do to me wasn’t enough.
I feel stupid, dumb, reckless even for letting him back in my life just to give him a chance to sink me even lower.
I am done with this family, it’s too toxic.
I blocked my brother, I blocked my dad.
I am putting this behind me and will truly start working on myself and myself only.
I am done helping everyone else first.
I’ve gotten my first commission and tomorrow I will start the drawing.
I will focus on what makes me happy and ignore the demons that keep trying to crawl back into my personal space.
I’m sorry my streams have been so depressing, I just needed to vent in a place where no one could use what I said against me.
Thank you so much for listening.
I wish you well.
@rambo @gladyce
