mexicant

you know where to find me.

Just sign your life away on the dotted line my friend. heh

I know you're feeling rundown, but I still think you're being too hard on yourself and to a certain extent, you are "creating more drama than there really is". You need to give yourself a break. As hard as things have been for you, you have still turned out to be a good person and one of the coolest people I know. I am being dead serious about this. I've seen people come from scenarios like yours and grow up to be nihilistic, shallow, chip-on-their-shoulder fuck-ups who think the whole world owes them something and they refuse to take any responsibility whatsoever. I have a friend whose parents divorced and for a while, I was afraid he was going to become one of those bitter fucks that do little other than make noise, take up space, and consume resources. Thankfully, he didn't turn out like that, and neither did you.

On another note, I'm glad you are seeking profesional help. You've got a ton of shit piled on top of your shoulders now and I think it will do you good. I know you've never been fond of the idea of getting professional help, so I must acknowledge and salute you for being able to swallow your pride a little bit concerning this.

I also know what you mean about asking too much from your woman. I know I asked a bit much from my first gf now and then. I look back wishing I hadn't done that.

I know this sounds a bit cheesy, but during hard times it really helps to read a book or watch a movie about somene who has it worse off than you. I am actually working on a story for a comic book in that fashion. It's about someone very similar to me who one day finds himself in a situation far worse than where he was at first. I am being very serious about this. Perspective can really help you out when you can say to yourself "Ok wow, at least I'm not in THAT guys situation!"

I'll tell you more details about it sometime. In the meantime, try to keep your head up ok?







Oh and by the way, how did the emo boy send his package?

well... obligation would be a more fitting word choice.

Its sad to say ......right now, I would rather be drunk or high.

Looks like a great mix. Wow. I have only heard of 4 of those bands you have on there.

thankyou. i knew you would. haha

I'm sorry sir, but not even Ms. Alba could entice me to watch that film. I did enjoy her dance moves in Sin City though.

I'm glad that your Mom's condition is improving. Though it's terminal, at least she's getting a chance to get some enjoyment out of life the time that she has left on this earth.

Take care.

my god. what an amazing compliment. thankyou. so much.

thats what i like to hear!

well how about you give me the money in advance... and i promise to do it eventually. or time warp -20 years and check my mom out.

when are we getting married though?

i watched that and almost threw up

unbelievable, even.

damn you look oh so sexy today

i dont know.. i just wanted you to know... i came by.

i agree, i do think im better than this bullshit. im glad you care enough to mention it. fucking everything about you is rad. thanks for not trying to be too deep. i appreciated your comment.

i adopted my kitty and i LOVE HIM and also HE IS THE BEST CAT IN THE WORD!!! AND BEAUTIFUL AND SMART AND NICE, BUT NOT TOO NICE. AND INDEPENDENT AND LOVING AND PRECIOUS AND MY EVERYTHING.