Yesterday my mother told me she has cancer. I didnt know how to feel or what to do about it. I wanted to cry until my eyes were sore from dehydration I wanted to hit something until my fists bled tears of their own I wanted to scream until my larynx burst from its fleshy confines but I couldnt. I just sat there and listened.
Shes going into surgery on Thursday and Ill be there with her. She said her doctors were optimistic that they could remove it all without causing any major damage to her. They say shell need to take a month off work to recuperate, and that they might need to change their plans and schedule after the surgery in case something else happens.
She told me all this yesterday after work. She called me over and I left work early to speak to her because my gf didnt feel comfortable going to something like that and I had to pick her up afterwards. The one time I needed her there with me and she wasnt. I wanted to bury myself in her arms when we got home and cry all the fear out of my body, but all I could see was her not being there for me when I needed her.
I cried in the bathroom instead.
Shes going into surgery on Thursday and Ill be there with her. She said her doctors were optimistic that they could remove it all without causing any major damage to her. They say shell need to take a month off work to recuperate, and that they might need to change their plans and schedule after the surgery in case something else happens.
She told me all this yesterday after work. She called me over and I left work early to speak to her because my gf didnt feel comfortable going to something like that and I had to pick her up afterwards. The one time I needed her there with me and she wasnt. I wanted to bury myself in her arms when we got home and cry all the fear out of my body, but all I could see was her not being there for me when I needed her.
I cried in the bathroom instead.
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kris7:
Ouch. Dude I am so sorry you're going through this right now. I hope she pulls through. I'm also sorry that you're feeling really alone. If you need someone to talk to, drop me a line k? Keep ya head up son. Take care.
laylajane69:
Sorry about your mom. It seems like she is having surgeru pretty fast though and hopefully everything will work out. My mom had cancer last year and she had 2 surgeries and rounds of chemo and radiation. It sucked when she went through it all but now she is recovering cancer free. It is the scariest thing I ever had to go through. The best you can do is just be there for her, emotionally and physically.