Monday Aug 30, 2004

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"...you were the one who made things different / you were the one who took me in / you were the one thing i could count on / above all, you were my friend..."

-Tom Petty: Don't Fade On Me

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Losing a friend is something that hurts more than any pain I've ever, or will ever, feel. Especially when this person has seen you through some of the hardest times of your life.

Sometimes though, you just have to realize that maybe life separates you so much that you find you no longer have proper footing to hang on to your friendship.

As i write this, tears are strwming from my eyes and on to my keyboard, so you'll have to excuse me if something is mispelled.

I just hope that someday you can find the peace and happiness that will calm you down and stop you from hurting those that only wish to be near you; that you stop lashing out at people when you should be welcoming them in.

I'm not gonna lie... I will miss you. But I know it's for the best. And I just want you to know that the time we were together did change me, and did mean something to me, but I realize now that it is done.

May the gods bless you and bring you the happiness that you so rightly deserve.
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dragonchylde:
ya I cant even afford something for 20 bucks..but really you dont have to do that.
gambitgirlie:
I don't mean that there was a complete disregard for your loyalty to me, just a shift. Like I said before, I am sorry that I took my frustrations with Sara's comments and attitude out on you. You are not a package deal, but in the past few months I have come to see you two as that, and tried fairly hard to get along with her in order to maintain your friendship. That was the reason I removed you as a friend. It was a knee-jerk reaction to her comments, and it was a mistake.I think you have to admit I have tried to make things work with her, and until recently I thought I was at the very least keeping my head above water.

The only reason I reacted to her journal was this:
She removed herself from my friends list, posted her comments about Brian and I in her journal, all without saying anything to me. She never said anything to me all night, or in all the months you two have been dating.

I did overreact to her comments. I admit it, and I am sorry that I did. But I have gone out of my way (and Brian has even gotten involved too, I see...) to let you know it was about her, not you. I have apologized more than one. I make this last effort to reconcile.

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