Ive been listening to Becks Sea Change album a lot lately. I forgot how good of an album it really is. There are a lot of people that tend to think that Becks musical range extends only as far as his hypnotically melodic popular songs go (i.e., Where Its At, Loser, etc.). The fact is that his mind just tends to focus on a more transient beat than most depressing artists. You really have to hand it to him with this album though He shows he can be as somber as the rest of them.
I constantly wish that more artists would bear their souls in this manner. Beck did it here, Rivers Cuomo (from Weezer fame) did it with Pinkerton (which is their best album IMO) I just wish more people would be honest to themselves and lay their souls down for everyone to relate to. Im tired of the overtly produced drivel that comes pouring out of the world. I just wish people would finally say, Fuck it Im depressed and really just want to cry and be completely okay with it.
Ive been on a good level as of late. My mind hasnt really played as many tricks on me as it normally does and the waves of depression that usually wash over me have only been high enough to drown baby rabbits. Im not wallowing in sadness or wanting to slit my wrists with an old pumpkin carving knife like I used to, but Im also not jumping up and down with glee and shitting rainbows. I know life is good and bad and Im okay with it.
Im finally okay with it.
Ive been crying to music a lot more than I used to though. I dont know if its because Im starting to build up a tolerance to the amount of Prozac Im on or if its because my emo-ness is finally starting to resurface. Either way, I think its fine. Who ever said men shouldnt cry obviously didnt feel the hole in his heart rip at the seams and swallow him when listening to someone croon over how their own heart hurts in a way much like his own.
What am I trying to say? I dont know. I guess I just wanted to ramble on about nothing in particular. Maybe Im hoping that someone out there is crying at exactly the same moment I am and that our tears can somehow traverse the infinite space between us and kiss each other in a way that makes us feel like we arent just lonesome tears anymore. That were both part of a larger scale of emotions. Maybe Im tired of not writing anything and hoping that these words will somehow absolve me of my Writers Block. I dont know anymore.
I really just dont know anymore but Im okay with it.
I constantly wish that more artists would bear their souls in this manner. Beck did it here, Rivers Cuomo (from Weezer fame) did it with Pinkerton (which is their best album IMO) I just wish more people would be honest to themselves and lay their souls down for everyone to relate to. Im tired of the overtly produced drivel that comes pouring out of the world. I just wish people would finally say, Fuck it Im depressed and really just want to cry and be completely okay with it.
Ive been on a good level as of late. My mind hasnt really played as many tricks on me as it normally does and the waves of depression that usually wash over me have only been high enough to drown baby rabbits. Im not wallowing in sadness or wanting to slit my wrists with an old pumpkin carving knife like I used to, but Im also not jumping up and down with glee and shitting rainbows. I know life is good and bad and Im okay with it.
Im finally okay with it.
Ive been crying to music a lot more than I used to though. I dont know if its because Im starting to build up a tolerance to the amount of Prozac Im on or if its because my emo-ness is finally starting to resurface. Either way, I think its fine. Who ever said men shouldnt cry obviously didnt feel the hole in his heart rip at the seams and swallow him when listening to someone croon over how their own heart hurts in a way much like his own.
What am I trying to say? I dont know. I guess I just wanted to ramble on about nothing in particular. Maybe Im hoping that someone out there is crying at exactly the same moment I am and that our tears can somehow traverse the infinite space between us and kiss each other in a way that makes us feel like we arent just lonesome tears anymore. That were both part of a larger scale of emotions. Maybe Im tired of not writing anything and hoping that these words will somehow absolve me of my Writers Block. I dont know anymore.
I really just dont know anymore but Im okay with it.
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lackluster:
yes.. what DOES that mean? when i start to want to feel sad just so i feel something. i think that is depression in its richest form.
lackluster:
thanks so much for the comments oin the set. im obviously left speachless in a more intimate medium but i did respond in the group. 