mexicant

and I agree its Ok to cry! I have seen some really tough guys cry in my life cuz were all human! hope it gets better!

That's some heavy stuff man. I agree with CHI, you need to find someone you can talk to in person about this stuff so you can let it all out. If I lived closer, I'd be all ears man. Take care.

I can see what you're saying. I'm sorry that you feel like you're going through this all alone, I can't even begin to imagine what you must be feeling right now. I hope things turn around for you and if they don't, I hope you can find the strength to soldier your way through it. I wish there was something more that I could say but I just don't have the words. Take care of yourself man. Drop me a line if you need to talk.

"Im not sure why I even post this here, or why I even bother posting at all really. I know no one actually reads any of this and that no one really cares one way BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.."

*picks up blunt object*

*hits you in teh head with it*

Hey fuckface! Guess what? I DO read this shit and I DO care so. to the rest of that last paragraph, you fucker.


For reals though, I know what you're talking about. Due to the fact that I moved into this town at the time I did and the current state of my life that I'm in, I didn't end up keeping in touch wiht a lot of people whom I should have kept in touch with.

Also, I'm sorry that i haven't kept in touch. I haven't been commenting on journals as much as I used to. It's moslty because lately, I've been thinking about which people in my life WANT me around and which people NEED me around. I've decided that I no longer want the NEEDERS in my life. I'm tired of playing the unsung hero. The sad part is I've been feeling so exhausted from having so little energy to "save myself" that I've been rather evasive, even towards people who don't deserve it. It's not that I don't care about them anymore. I just simply didn't have the energy left in me to hear about anyone else's problems. I may have now contradicted myself a bit in this post, but......fuck it. Basically what I'm trying to say is, that I do care, even though I haven't been stopping by as much as I used to. Please don't take it to heart.

On another note, I hope your mother pulls through. Try to keep your head up and take care of yourself big guy.

I actually look forward to reading your journal thingys. Theyre always so emotional and seems you relly put some thought into what youre saying. Instead of mindless blabing. Like mine! ha. So if its any consolation, you dont just take up space on my friends list of journals.

I feel ya on the social thing. I have been invited to a few of these SG events and cant get the nerve to go. Even ones that are litterally a block away from me. But im gonna try, even if I get there and turn right around and go home. At least I tried instead of sitting my ass. heh. My friend and I are having a housewarming party probabley next saturday, you should come. We'll be anti-social angry people together. haha

Hahaha. I love you how you take the time to yell at me about something in your journals now and then. I only have their album You'd Prefer An Astronaught. They do indeed rock.

I'm sorry to hear about your Mom. I hope she pulls through. Take care man.

Dude, you have the *best* profile pic I have ever seen.

And I mean that very sincerely.

Do rock.

DTH!

Hi there!
I will think good thoughts for your mom..
Thanks for the b-day wishes..

Ouch. Dude I am so sorry you're going through this right now. I hope she pulls through. I'm also sorry that you're feeling really alone. If you need someone to talk to, drop me a line k? Keep ya head up son. Take care.

Sorry about your mom. It seems like she is having surgeru pretty fast though and hopefully everything will work out. My mom had cancer last year and she had 2 surgeries and rounds of chemo and radiation. It sucked when she went through it all but now she is recovering cancer free. It is the scariest thing I ever had to go through. The best you can do is just be there for her, emotionally and physically.

dude my car was stolen out of my school parking lot... wtf is that...

Wow, that really is a rockin computer. Unlike for gg, it's not ALL Greek to me.

As tired I am of Microsoft, it really is just the whole familiarity issue that keeps me hoping for something better and stuck to the product.

Now if I can only get out of this crummy win 98 into XP....

Now that tax refunds are right around the corner and that Cox has a computer purchase plan I probably will!

MISD

Well, if you'd ever call to hang out.......then you'd be able to see the apartment!

And thanks for welcoming Michael.

Yeah, thanks!

Fuckin' PC's man.

Hope to talk to you soon bro. laters!

i know what you mean. i've had some good friends on here leave without any notice.

motherfucker!!! please call me!

i would love to spend some time with you.

*ahem*

First off, I don't "wine" about anything. Wine is something you drink, not something you do. Now, whining, on the other hand is something totally different. As far as snow goes, I was out today shoveling that shit, so I think I have the right to complain about it because so much of it fell that most of my state is in a state of emergency with people being told to stay home for their own safety.

A)
1.The Seven Samurai
2.See A Grown Man Cry/Now Watch Him Die by Henry Rollins
3.King Black Acid - Sunlit An hour long album with three songs on it. The last song was used in the SGB anniversary video, go check it out.

B)
1 - What did you have for breakfast today?
Fried eggs with hash and ketchup and buttered toast. Yum.

2 - Name your favorite Rollins album.
Fav. Black Flag: Damanged
Fav. Rollins Band: Weight
Fav. Spoken Word: Think Tank
Fav. poetry/spoken word: Nights Behind The Tree Line.

3 - What's the difference between Jesus and a prostitute?
I cheated and read your answer. I figured it was a joke.



ps. I've seen Six String Samurai, it was pretty cool.

I have a weakened immune system, so I know how you feel. I get sick all the fricking time. I was sick for about 3 years straight until I finally had to have my tonsils removed because they were filled with this virus that was basically killing me, but now it just lives in my stomach and wrecks things down there. So is life...

Mind over matter can be a very powerful thing, but I don't think it can solve everything. As for me, I have a very strong immunes system and I take good care of myself. I'm sick about once a year or so, tops. Get yourself some tea or orange juice and stay warm.

Of course it's also easy for a west coaster like you to say "it's all in your mind" when you've never experienced temperatures below 60 degress and you've never been to the east coast where we are now currently getting buried under three, count 'em, THREE feet of snow.