metta

Definitely time for a blog update.
First things first.

I am thinking about changing the way I blog in the new year.


Should I start to write random stream of consciousness a la Bukowski? that would be pretty swell I think.
I have been in a very educated state of being lately.

COnsidering the holidays are a bit different for me this year I have been noticing the lack of excitement by everyone this year.Is it the lagging economy or is it my own cynicism?
You can't call a cab if you cant pay the fare right? unless you get out and run. but that's a different way of thinking.

I am rambling now.

OR with the new blog I could just do picture blogs. Am I a happy go-lucky linky-linky gal? maybe.

But then i sit back light up a smoke and wait for another vodka straight up to appear in my hands and then think "FUCK IT." It's funny. Someone else will find it. It's the internet.


I think perhaps If someone gives me a topic each week I can wax poetic about it on a blog. What do you think.
Someone else's semantics can be comforting can't they?

I have been thinking about attraction lately.
Not in the way in which most people think about it. But in the fact that i want to press my lips up against most everyone i meet. Man. Woman. It doesn't matter. Is that attraction. No . It's loneliness? perhaps.

It's the feeling of plump, slightly warm and moist flesh against mine that I long for.
The feeling and taste of someone lips after they have had a gin or a toke on the finest herb.
I picture in this fantasy it's a man with a slight beard that scratches slightly.

He smells of sandalwood.


I like the smell of sandalwood on a cold night.


Night all

M~