metta

Ok.

Have you ever woken up and thought. " I want to be in a relationship'?

I know. I know. I am so anti-relationship right now but today I woke up kind of lonely.

I have realized the only men that go for me are the emotionally needy or the prick.

Why isnt there a good in between.

OH OH.. i forgot about another kind of guy. The "let have sex without committment" guy.

There is a certain person I am talking about.

I wont go into too too much detail, but lets say I dont trust him/it.

I am VERY stand-offish with most men. I think its becasue I am sure they only want to use me for sex.
I don't think I have been with someone who wanted to show me off.

I always feel like I am their dirty little secret.

Does that make sense.

I am not the most attractive girl and definitely not the fittest ( I.e I'm fat), but I am a gem to be with.

I think these guys like who I am but dont want to show me off or commit because of what I look like.

I am having a FUGLY DAY so please excuse the lack of self esteem.

RANT DONE






P.S I dont usually get political here but I had to post this..you know.. being a journalist and all