I've walked this earth for thirty eight years, and I'm genuinely unsure if I have a tribe. I've never really felt like I belonged anywhere, like I truly fit in. My partner, who is also my lover and my best friend is the closest I have. When I'm with her, no matter where we are, I feel like I'm home. The thing is, our differences compliment each other, but they're sometimes very apparent.
So far I feel more welcomed by the wonderful SG community than any other I've joined, but even here I feel like I don't quite fit.
I identify strongly as a geek, gamer and tabletop roleplayer, but don't seem to click well with others in these groups. I'm an introvert, which doesn't really help matters, and also have a deep seated paranoia about letting people get to know me properly.
I wonder if I'm truly tribe-less, and if there are many others who feel the way I do. The over-trained, highly analytical part of my brain likes to point out to me that, logically, I'd be highly unlikely to know for sure. This is because, like me, they're unlikely to go around showing themselves.
Something to ponder this quiet, somewhat lonely night..
