melaniek

Some days are hard for me.....I don't like feeling vulnerable.

I think of the positives in my life....and the things that I am trying to acheive....I think of the things that make me happy.....I think of the good times that I have had.....I think of the people that I care about and love....I think of the talks and progress that I am making in therapy....I...
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Yay! Woohoo!!! I am very happy today!!!!

It is soooo cold here today. This AM the temp was -4 and I didn't much
enjoy the drive/walk to work. It was a little gusty and I forgot my
gloves. I have no idea what the wind chill temp was, but it was enough to induce frostbite! My face feelschapped!!!
I had therapy yesterday and I felt so good after that. Today I am...
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I am still tired and my throat is sore and it is hard to swallow. But this is differant than normal. I always have sinus stuff and my throat gets scratchy. This is sore at the top of my throat, hard to swallow anything, and one of my lymph nodes is very sore. Must be trying to fight off some virus???? Might have to go...
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I am not feeling so great today. tired-physically and mentally. not eating much. so exhausted. a little down in the dumps. don't wanna do laundry. don't wanna clean up the house. need to clean the house-badly! gonna put on a funny movie, get up, clean up, so i can get back on the couch-rest-laugh-eat-maybe nap.

Just saw "Cloverfield" tonite. I thought that it was pretty good, except for the excessive shaky handi-cam. I t did make you more scared, but it also kind of made your stomach hurt. It was a story to show how far you would go for the one that you love-even against all odds. How would you feel if the one that you love was taken...
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Did I mention how much I like late night/early morning sleepy/dreamy sex?

I cannot tell you how happy I am that Brad and I have been working things out. This has been such a soul searching time for me. I have ALWAYS loved Brad and wanted to be so close to him. I know that he has always loved me. I know that I am the perfect woman for him. I know that he is the perfect...
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Wow! After so long (10 years) of no communication, which brings on resentment, jealousy, secrecy, anger, pain-well, the whole gamut of negative emotions-I am so glad that we ARE communicating!!!! Being open and honest with our thoughts, desires, pasts, vulnerabilities only leads to closeness, trust, and even more love. I always loved Brad, but now I am madly in love with him. I have always...
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