At home feeling sorry for myself. Pity Party.....lame. I just felt like crying because this pain has taken control of my life. I cant do anything anymore. It get worse daily. I have trouble walking now. Sitting hurts. Standing hurts. Laying down hurts. I do constant therapy. I spend all my money of treatment. Im sick everyday from having to take so much medicine. I can hardly eat. Im too depressed to leave my house. I sleep all day. I am at my breaking point. Im looking up surgical procedures but there seem to be many risks with spinal surgery. I think its worth the risks though. I am having trouble walking and lifting my arms. What happens when I cant stand up anymore? Im so scared. I cant talk about it though without tearing up. I fucking hate this.
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hardcoresteve:
yea, def not something to play with. I dont think i would let anyone near my spinal cord...too high of risk of becoming paralyzed
devilsbard:
Fuck, I hope everything is better by now. I've been through back issues, after a car accident. Hope this has been taken care of or gotten better on its own by now.