Well no shooting today. I couldn't get anyone to go with me and shooting solo gives me that crazy guy in the clock tower feeling. Well not really but I just felt like a day in. Strange as it may sound reading some of my other blog entries something strange happened today and it took me by surprise.
The prosepective booty call turned me down but that isn't what is strange I am used to rejection. I'll be honest, I strike out WAY more often than when I score. But shortly after that I updated my status on Facebook. It had nothing to do with anything. Too many creeps out there and I'm not big on shareing there anymore, this is much better, so I put up insirational quotes from famous people.
Today I updated "You will become as small as your controlling desire; as great as your dominant aspiration." -James Allen.
What I realised that since I became single my controlling desire was sex, lots of it with as many people as I could. This isn't a bad thing but the fact is it was and to a point still is making me small, making me move away from my goals. It's strange how one sentance can really throw you for a loop.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to have my fun, but I will no longer allow it to dominate my free time. I lost sight of my goals and I need to refocus, I will still enjoy my booty call, and keep my eyes open for others but I will remain focused on my workout, diet, my enlistment, and my attempt to get back into school.
Now since this epiphany I managed to get back to the gym for the first time since Christmas Eve, adjust my workout, and get a date. Yeah a date not a booty call. I met her New Years Eve, she is nice. While it may just end in friendship, I'm oddly ok with that. Still in shock a bit that one sentance can change your outlook so fast.
You know it's been such a good day today I think I'll reward myself stay up late and watch The Daily Show, and the Colbert Report. Haven't seen them since Obama was elected. Yeah I know.
The prosepective booty call turned me down but that isn't what is strange I am used to rejection. I'll be honest, I strike out WAY more often than when I score. But shortly after that I updated my status on Facebook. It had nothing to do with anything. Too many creeps out there and I'm not big on shareing there anymore, this is much better, so I put up insirational quotes from famous people.
Today I updated "You will become as small as your controlling desire; as great as your dominant aspiration." -James Allen.
What I realised that since I became single my controlling desire was sex, lots of it with as many people as I could. This isn't a bad thing but the fact is it was and to a point still is making me small, making me move away from my goals. It's strange how one sentance can really throw you for a loop.
Don't get me wrong, I'm still going to have my fun, but I will no longer allow it to dominate my free time. I lost sight of my goals and I need to refocus, I will still enjoy my booty call, and keep my eyes open for others but I will remain focused on my workout, diet, my enlistment, and my attempt to get back into school.
Now since this epiphany I managed to get back to the gym for the first time since Christmas Eve, adjust my workout, and get a date. Yeah a date not a booty call. I met her New Years Eve, she is nice. While it may just end in friendship, I'm oddly ok with that. Still in shock a bit that one sentance can change your outlook so fast.
You know it's been such a good day today I think I'll reward myself stay up late and watch The Daily Show, and the Colbert Report. Haven't seen them since Obama was elected. Yeah I know.