mediapuzzle

Feeling a bit C.R.A.P. I think I just need a rest day. Thing is - there is no such thing as a rest day. Sunday is supposed to be a rest day , instead , its a 'cram all you fucking can in' day. Thats why we feel like shit on Monday. I dont even abuse drugs or alcohol. At least not regularly, usually or recently. I respect my body. Does my body respect me? I think not. Otherwise I wouldn't feel this way. Maybe I should go and do a retreat. Eat brown rice and veges. Get away from the fucking city, and the internet, and the media. I can see why people are drawn to dramatic and drastic action. They simply give up or have enuff and explode. Why is so hard to lead a balanced thoughful life. Why do we spin out of control from one disaster to the next. Is it possible to live another way without meditation, or god, or drugs. Is it possible to be happy.

Thing is - I actually know what I should be doing. I just dont do it.