Whilst waiting for my ancient connection to load i can stare at a picture of park city utah in the pristine beauty of a new snowfall. it seems we can live our life in the past present or the future. i tend to live 80% of my life in the future and i think this is wrong. i am forever waiting for 'the next thing to happen' instead of enjoying 'this moment' or 'the last moment'. granted i have been appreciating many bowie moments in the past week but this is not the norm. i tend to race through my day waiting for it to end and the next day to begin. same with bushwalks, i am always wanting to get there rather than enjoy the moment. i think sex is probably the same. i wonder if i will ever learn.
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texas:
yeah i am starting to like it. the shock has worn off 
jibaili:
thats an interesting journal entry.. i know what you mean about the always looking forward thing, i think sometimes it happens because you seem to have a positive personality.. atleast thats how it works in my case, i tend to keep pushing and racing forward dragging people into the future with me.. i wish the future was here now, but then it would be the present and i'de still be looking for a future and it just gets really confusing after that.. stuck in a loop..