I'm finally getting the panics of homeownership. We bought the house last November and now I'm just getting to the point of wanting to flee. I love the house but when I think about the mortgage and such, I also think about how much traveling I could be doing, and how much different my life might be right now, this summer, if I didn't feel... Read More
Venting happens. I think we all struggle with immediate gratification. As a society we all seem to want more and more. Good luck figuring things out. I hope you are doing well.
dude, i'm quite a few years away from owning my own house, but i can already see why it would scare you and seem suffocating in a way. as much as you'd like to be traveling and having a good time, just remember that now you have your own place to come back to when you're done with your adventures.
My real job is done for a few months now. I start a quick four day gig this morning, then I'm in a lot of trouble. I need to find something for next week. I hate the stress of job hunting. It gets in the way of so many things. I just want to be able to show up and do whatever thing I'm supposed... Read More
Hahaha that's what ive been trying to tell myself. They are kind of fucked without me in a way i'd like to know how much money they've lost in firing me and training someone else to do my work. Probably more than a dollar.
Why am I awake at 6:45 in the morning? Last day of school yesterday. Began drinking at 1:00 pm. Went home at 1:00 am. A good time was had by all. But mass quantities of booze and beer were consumed. The ice luge was a hit. The beirut table of course was busy. But now I'm awake. not sick. Just awake.
Tomorrow is graduation. I am really proud of so many of my students. But it is always a hard time for me. I know that I am part of what is soon to be their history. They will move on and go out into the world and if I am lucky I will hear from time to time how they are doing. Yet, they are... Read More
Ah it continues. I suck at sleeping. There seems to be no end to the ways in which I am really just bad at seeping If I am able to get to sleep, I don't usually stay asleep. Then there are the times where I just don't fall asleep. Then there are nights like last night. I read for a while and then got really... Read More
Maybe I'll learn to play a new song today. I'm feeling a pull towards the classic blues of the delta.
There has been so much tying of loose ends lately that I don't know what to write about. I feel like there is so much going on that I just am not sure where to begin. Or if I should bother to begin at all.... Read More
I appreciate all of your kind words. I really wish I knew what would help me feel better, but right now it just seems like kind words and sorry's are appropriate. I don't really know what to do with all of my feelings, but I am glad that he is finally at peace.
It's been threatening rain all day today. I think I don't care anymore. I'm going to go take a nap in the hammock. It there much better than that? Oh, yeah I'm taking a book and a beer with me. How 'bout now? Anything better? I wish I had one more day this weekend. It never seems like enough time to really get relaxed before... Read More
Ahhh, a holiday weekend. A glorious chance to to unwind the tension... except that I still have work to be doing all weekend. Even with the work I need to be doing, I've managed to watch two movies, go to a friend's art opening at a gallery a few towns over, mow the yard, put up and fall asleep in the hammock, and eat too... Read More
Well, I cannot deny that I would like to go down in history for something amazing and legendary, but if I can just produce some creative work that I'm proud of and live my life the way I want to - then I'll settle for that.
I forgot to turn on my alarm clock last night before going to bed around midnight. No big deal. I noticed it hadn't been turned on when I woke up at 3:00am for no reason. I turned it on but didn't go back to sleep. Then I worked a 14 hour day. Why am I awake right now?
It's bee a working weekend which isn't the best. But at least I'm in a decent mood about it. There are just so many other things that I'm interested in doing today. I think I'm going to take a break to see a few of my friends row at the regatta around noonish or one. It's supposed to be a good day and the regatta... Read More
i have no gig as of yet... i just started my masters at tcnj (aka the college of new jersey or trenton state)... but will graduate next may. im going to have internship 1 (sitting at the back of the classroom) in the fall and internship 2 (actual student teaching) next spring... i plan on teaching high school bio/anatomy... whats your dealie?
The Gratitudes for the Day:
1) The fact that people wanted to see the silly poem. It's purpose is just as a faculty submission or high school literary magazine.
So tired right about now. I have approximately three and a half tons of work to do, give or take a few pounds. and I also have a dinner to go tonight with people I have never met before. I guess I'll just have to be forgiven for being distracted and not all that interested in talking. But in another few weeks things should clear... Read More
