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I grilled again last night after running to a beauty supply store to buy the most expansive hair removal wax I have ever seen, I almost gasped when I saw $40!!! HOLEY SHIT, NEET was so inexpensive, but being part Greek and part Italian does not give me the luxury of having invisible or light body hair, especially after 2 weeks of prednisone, and yes my lower back gets fuzzy, sorry to kill that fantasy but its life, I keep Gillette in business alone with just shaving my legs and armpits daily the whole year round. Mach III aint cheap either!

so after the errand I went to starbucks of course the love of my life Iced peppermint mocha, and then to wholefoods to get some Ground beef and cheddar slices. to then BBQ burgers and Corn and a slice of valdia Onion, man those cheeseburgers were SO Damn juicy and good, a little Montral Seasoning and soy sauce and Lawry's salt go a long way.

so AmericanZero
responded to myself and Chris, and it sounded like he basically summed me up as Superficial and in need of some mental health. well sorry AZ already had my share of therapist. basically told me I had a level head on my shoulders and just needed to be in and around people that made me feel loved. whose not insecure and scarred? I cry when needed and say fuck you when needed. and I know what's healthy for me or what's damaging. and incase you didn't notice not all my Images on the NET are Nude pics of me. or even Pics of me. but that's why you came here in the first place to see some T&A so I'm just giving you your moneys worth aren't I, and you get to peek into my life as well as others here to Boot. all at the expense of me not loving myself so you say. At this age I can say I model for me under my conditions when I feel like it, I don't depend on it. it makes me feel confident. and in control. as for harming myself, if you have lived through the shit I have , the least you would do is pull your hair out, and that's about all I do to harm myself. but sorry I didn't know OCD was considered harming yourself. in fact it feels good to do it, it relaxes me, it people who see bald patches on a pretty girl and get all freaked out that depress me, not the actual act itself, but reactions of others, the need to fit in. as for my view on porn, well I am not responsible for the end user women look at my photos and don't feel the need or are compelled jerk off so don't come here with that bullshit.
and I am not having an orgasm when I pose, don't mistake a higher self esteem for sexual gratification.
eh whatever. Kiss it if you don't like my views. no onews forcing you to read.

so off to the Allergist to be tested on for 2 hrs today then to the nail salon after work, it's tough running around to be high maintenance, but gotta try to feel my best despite the rash this weekend.

last night a old high school friend called me from Boston out of the Blue, apparently my HS is having a reunion in October in Boston, but the school is so small its from classes 1970-1995 or something.

craving of the day: hmm I have been good substituting ice cream with apples. and Godiva just came out with an iced chocolate drink for $4.50...

OCDF:75% i'm trying