maxi

Came in this morning with a bitchy attitude, no wonder why, the minuet I log on my computer at work I get this " girl " if it is a girl" who keeps IMing me, said she got my info off of One Model Place, but my screen name isn't there, I find it hard to believe that she can piece together my name to my IM screen name, she is like a decade younger than me, lives in Texas somewhere, and Imes me everyday, and I don't answer, finally I told her today:

g3ecko123: hey
Me: what is it you want, I'm really busy, I just logged on and your iMing, me, you didn't seem to want any advice nor did you ask for any, we are a decade a part have nothing in common, don't live near each other and I'm not even sure your a girl, if your lonely for conversation go find a chat room or I can refer you to several people
g3ecko123: wow
g3ecko123: I'm really sorry, I was simply trying to meet new people in the industry, take care
Me: I'm not in the industry
ME: I have a real job, as I assume you don't
ME: .I'm not 20

then I check my email and get shit like this to greet me first thing before my cup of tea at 9 am
Message:

Hi Maxi--I just got around to seeing your photosets, and I'm struck by several things. First of all, you're sexy (goes without saying). But also, we're not too far apart in age. You're from Beantown and like clams, and I live near there and like clams too. You like Depeche Mode, Hooverphonic and Stereolab, and so do I. And finally, you like having you're pussy eaten, and it looks awfully tasty to me!

yrs,

shoedaddy this is by
shoeman go say Hi to him ( waving)

, ya that's about as good as the one I got in my Site email that I never check because its not live yet saying
I wanna fuck you doggie style while I eat chocolate covered grasshoppers.

way to go winners!
this is what you get graced with time to time when you business is on the Net or anywhere public, assholes hiding behind their computers, snickering to them selves how brilliant they are!

I'm not doing swell lately, a quick rundown, a really personal one. Leave this page if its too much for you now:
My mom is in Rehab for like the 3rd time in the past year and a half this time for Morphine.
My crack head sister whom I haven't spoken to since last June and her spirit of the moment Breast implants at the age of like 38 and a bunch of kids counting on her is currently and still on crack after about a 5 year clean period.


My relationship is on rocky waters, no matter how much I want it to be smooth. I'm not sure he even wants to be with me. he's so busy lusting after everyone else and anyone else that's not me.
going through a divorce at the same time
I barely see my best friend
I don't know where my other best friend is.
Rash is still hanging around, I feel like a leper if I haven't said it before.
I spent the last 2 days ripping my hair out literally, so my OCDF is about 45% right now due to some stress I suppose. and now I really hate my self for it.
I feel old, unappreciated, and barley loved.
My work likes me but is still under paying me, and how will I explain when I want to leave the reasons why on top of the fact that I don't want to work near Ant anymore. while he lust after others.
Basically if you thought pretty girls have it made your wrong. all I got going for me is my 3 little dogs.
I just want some sanity, I just want to be surrounded by love, I just want to be appreciated with out having to scream and fuss for it.
People don't know a good thing till it walks out on them.

so the question is: do i wanna put myself in dept by booking a last min vacation, is sanity worth Debt, and will a vaca give me sanity?

No craving at teh moment
OCDF : above , "Slaps her own hand"