maxi

I wasn't on yesterday because I was too busy at work, I feel blah, its raining so hard that I have to put my slippers on at work to let my socks and shows dry out.
I feel slightly depressed, most of it is probably relationship related. I keep trying to hang on but occasionally I loose faith in my ability to do so. I am starting to feel that I must expect way too much of any mere mortal or man to accommodate me. and I don;t mean sexually. I mean I don't think what I require is allot considering its easy for me to give the things that I expect in return like...

Monogamy
Love
Affection
Respect/mutual respect
Humor
Truth/ Trustworthy
likes to travel
Loves to eat
Sex/Oral
Good Hygiene
makes me feel special and Beautiful
Brings out the best in me
Supportive
sensitive
good manners
and the Capper is ( NO PORN) unless its a self production or produced by us or me. Yes I want to feel like I am the the only one that puts the spring in his step, the only one that ignites his flame, I know that's ludicrous but that's why I say I feel I am meant to be alone. it seems to be that this list of combination/features in a mate is a Ridiculous list and too much to expect from a Man not thousands of men but Just ONE!

craving of the day: a bowl of happiness and glee covered in butter and cream.