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So my excitement for holiday plans have been deflated a bit, NOW that I found 2 great places one a cottage and one a cabin in Asheville NC for the holidays http://www.bittersweetcottage.com/, & http://www.engadinecabins.com/reese.htm Ant isn't sure he wants to leave his family for fear of being guilt ridden for not falling in line with the rest of the sheep. or that he won't have much to do and get depressed there? Gee thanks, I guess being with ONLY me on the holidays for like 3-4 days and nothing but the beauty of nature and a quaint little hippie town dotted with cute cafe's and galleries would bring anyone down, People Suck, I feel like saying fuck it ill spend my holiday the way I want and you spend yours the way you want. because I refuse to spend the month up till the 25th of December Racking my brain to find and buy meaningless gifts that don't mean shit to people I don't know well enough to be indebt for the next 6 months after, or show up at with no gift and have them give me a meaningless one and then I'm herded into the guilt as well. the only person enjoy buying gifts for is Ant. but as I remember when I was married the holidays were the most dreadful part. I like Ants family way more but the same rules apply. I'm just not as traditional as I use to be. or I just think the whole thing is bullshit. maybe I should change religions, but then most religions are bullshit too. or maybe I should just start a new tradition of spending the holidays alone and afar from everyone and their own guilt problems.
bahumbug!

food craving of the day: peppermint HOT chocolate with marshmallow and whipped cream

NickFaust001: So what are you going to do?
Tanya: well im gonna give him a few days prob over the weekend, i told the place i think i really want to stay at the bittersweet cottage that my BF needs time and i would tell them monday, but if someone else wants it to give it , biz is biz, but if ant decides he wants to do the family thing, i think im gonna tell him that i am not shopping and not going to his familys, and i prob i will just go see my mom nad then take a weekend by myself somewhere, i don't drive so, it will prob be a city. he won't like that but i refuse to conform, my soon to be ex husband and i had many arguments about me spending time around the holidays with his nutty family, and damn it im too old to keep doing what makes everyone else happy
Tanya: i don't give a fuck if he feels guilty
Tanya: im not runnung my life behind someone elses guilt
Tanya: if i wanted that i would be a practicing catholic
Tanya: ill go to mexico
Tanya: he can make the deal with me to go away every other x-mas starting this year or not see me at all on the holidays