maxi

TGIF!
so yesterday i had the CD and needed to make sure it was the real thing ( not that a copy can't be made ) befor i detroyed it, of course i had to look more detailed this time, and yup, got pissed all over again. Hopefully it will pass but i can't help compare myself to all those women that i am not. I know I'm Only torturing myself. and i know that most men don't actually fatasize about being with every piece of ass they look at, But still sometimes it seems easier not to be in a realtionship where I'm bothered by shit like this. This whole thing just makes me want to just start modeling Full Force now to make myself feel better. I really wish i could see past the forest and I hope this incident doesn't make a major emotional and mental crimp in the relationship where i eventually can't handle it and back away.

Supposed to see Cirque De Soliel tonight, i hope i can push this out of my mind to at least enjoy it.

i just love when i find shit on the net of me and didn't even know it was posted, though this photographer was creepy anyhow-- HOLEY shit the fucker PS my tattoo oFF! WTF