Despite my launch of my LP set and Seeing Krabuki now Xilia is back who shot my Giddy Up set, all great news to make anyone really happy and all the love and kind words since yesterday and through the holiday season, I am in a dark little place. So sad i can't even shed a tear.
Why is it the whole world wants to be near me and likes me or desires me but the one man i chose to share my really mundane and normal sometimes not so normal life with, to share my bedside and give all of my self completely to does not return the same, but in fact desires all others from afar and at close distance. I am invisible to him. and now My expiration date is up for this relationship according to his actions over the last 6 months or so.
I so dread the thought of getting to know another man and acquiring pet names, getting him to know how to touch me just right, or how to sooth my troubles. How to understand me all over again.
and that my freinds is how my rollercoaster ride of a holiday has panned out as of last night.
Over and out....
Why is it the whole world wants to be near me and likes me or desires me but the one man i chose to share my really mundane and normal sometimes not so normal life with, to share my bedside and give all of my self completely to does not return the same, but in fact desires all others from afar and at close distance. I am invisible to him. and now My expiration date is up for this relationship according to his actions over the last 6 months or so.
I so dread the thought of getting to know another man and acquiring pet names, getting him to know how to touch me just right, or how to sooth my troubles. How to understand me all over again.
and that my freinds is how my rollercoaster ride of a holiday has panned out as of last night.
Over and out....
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Hang on in there